Doctor who one shots/imagines BOOK 2🌏

doctor, doctor, have mercy on me (8th)

I'd been travelling with the Doctor for five years, I never looked back and I saw a new way of living, it was never boring with him. He made everyday fun, we did so much together and he was my best friend, the man I knew could never let me down, no matter how hard it got. I lean against the console, he was rambling away about mechanics of the TARDIS. I stare at the ground for a moment, zoning out for a moment. "Y/n?" I look up, "What?" His eyes softened, "What is it?" I frowned, "Nothing, I'm fine." He smiled a little, "Good." I felt different with him, I was terrified that he would leave me one day, I'd given my life to him, everything I was. Maybe it was love, but I didn't want to tell myself that. Even if I knew it was true. "Doctor, can I go and see my family?" I asked, "What?" I sat down on the steps, "Would that be okay? Just a couple of days." He nodded, "Yes, of course." He didn't even look at me, as he worked away at the TARDIS. "Thanks, doctor." I stand up, before I went upstairs to my bedroom. I shut the door, as I take a deep breath. "Fuck." I lean against the wall, as I try and get myself together. I couldn't stand being around him when I had so much love inside of my heart, keeping it secret for this long, it was hell. It hurt, more than anything. I put some of my things together, before I leave and I went down the steps. "I'll see you in two days." He still wouldn't look at me. "Gotcha." I whispered, as I turn and I left the TARDIS. I look at my hometown.

It felt strange being back here, because I could hardly remember what life was before him. "Why did you say that?" I look back, as he stood at the door. "Say what?" He looked sad, I'd seen that look before. "Are you leaving me? Just be honest. I can take it." I look away from him, as I started to walk away. "Y/n, you can't just walk away and not tell me why." He grabbed my forearm, as I turn to face him. "Do you want me to lie to you instead? And tell you this is the best thing I've ever done?" He frowned, "This isn't good for us, y/n. Lying to me. Walking away, not telling me the reason why you're leaving me. I thought we were past all of that." I watched his eyes, "I've lied to you for years, Doctor. And you let me, you let me lie. You let me live in a lie." He took my hand, "Tell me. Whatever it is, we can work through it, we find a way. We've always found a way." I let go of his hand, "Not everything in life has a straight answer, doctor." I walk past him, "We've been together for five years, you're not walking away from me and not telling me why!" He raised his voice, as I took a breath. "It's because of you, doctor! You've driven me back here!" I shouted, "I've been good to you, haven't I?" I ran a hand through my hair, "You left me, doctor! You left me on that planet, I was so sure I was going to die and my best friend ran away, because that's what you do best." He stepped back, "I wouldn't of left you there, I would never."

"You did, Doctor. You made me believe I was as good as dead, so that's it. You don't get to decide how I live or die anymore, you go back to your lonely bloody TARDIS, and you go away." He looked down, as the guilt started to eat at me, because this man that I loved, I was pushing him further than I ever had. And I had to live with that. "You don't mean it." I sighed, "I gave you everything, doctor. You had my life in your hands and you let go, you left me terrified and alone. And now, that's exactly what I'm doing to you. I'm leaving you alone." He grabbed my wrist, "You know what? No. I'm not letting you go because you're lying to me. Tell me that you're lying, that you take it back." I shake my head, as I let some tears fall. "I know you're lying to me, you already forgave me. You promised me that you wouldn't leave." He pulled me into him, as I close my eyes and I held onto him tightly. "You've taken my hearts, y/n. Please, don't leave me lonely." He whispered, as I felt that safety again. He was my home, he always had been. "Y/n?" I turn around, seeing my ex boyfriend, Cameron. Shit. The Doctor gripped onto me harder, "What are you doing here? I thought you left." He put his hands in his pockets. "I thought you left. But, you're back now. Who's this?" He asked. "This is- the Doctor." He looked confused, "What kind of name is that?" I rolled my eyes, "He's kind of beyond this earth." He smiled a little, "Can we talk? About us?" I turn around, "Us? I'm sorry, but this is my future right here." He didn't let go of me, as he glared at Cameron.

"Really? This guy?" I nodded, "He's the best thing that ever happened to me, I didn't know what love felt like before I met him, but now, now I'm pretty sure he is the love of my life." I squeeze his hand. "What she said." I smiled a little, Cameron just scoffed and walked away, as I laughed. "Wasn't so hard to tell me that, was it?" I look back at him, "Shut it, Timelord." He gently kissed my forehead, "Come on, let's go home."

And I knew, this was my life for good.