Doctor who one shots/imagines BOOK 2🌏

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"Are you okay?" I glanced back at him, as I snapped out of my thoughts. "What? Oh. Yeah, yeah I'm okay. Thanks, Doctor." He frowned, before he turned back to the console. I'd been doing a lot of thinking, mostly about my family, my friends. People I'd left behind, those I had lost. I was scared, I'd left everyone I loved for him, a man that I barely even knew. It had been the most amazing year, but a part of me was just missing home. "Doctor, can you explain something to me?" He looked back at me. "What is it?" He asked. "Who are you?" He looked away, sighing gently. "Y/n-" I cross my arms, "We've been together for two years, Doctor. And I still don't know who you are. Not really." He went silent, as I nodded. "It's okay. I understand." I stand up, as I went back toward my bedroom, I shut the door and I sit down on the bed. Why did I feel alone? Was it me? I get dressed into my pyjamas, as I hear a knock at the door. I frowned, before I opened it. "Doctor." He looked down at me, "Come and sit with me." He grabbed my hand, as we both sit down on my bed. "When we first met- I was a very angry, bitter man. My planet- I lost my planet. Gallifrey. The time lords all died. It was my fault." I held onto his hand, as he told me everything. "You made me better, y/n. I'm not the same man that I was two years ago. You've changed my life- I can't even begin to thank you for coming into my life. It just feels like this is meant to be the end for us now."

"I hope so, Doctor." I kiss his cheek, as I sighed gently. "I never want to make you angry, y/n. It's never my intention. I want to know your feelings." I nodded, "I know, Doctor. It's just- there's so much that goes on inside my head and it scares me. I don't want to lose what we have here. I care about you- I care about the future. Whatever happens. But I'm also afraid that one day I just won't be here. And you'll be alone." He frowned, "I won't let that happen. I'll never let anyone hurt you. I'll die before that happens." I smiled, a little sadly. "Doesn't it scare you?" He shook his head. "I don't have to worry. I know you won't go anywhere. How about we go on a trip? I'll make it up to you." I smiled. "Yeah, I'd like that." He stood up, before he left to go back to the console. I take a shaky breath, my heart beating even harder. I'd already fallen for him, there was nothing I could do about that. I couldn't tell him. I never would. "Y/n!" I came back to the console. "Yeah?" He seemed happy. "I don't know if I ever mentioned Rose- we used to travel together. She wants to join us, is that okay?" Rose. Great- more competition. "Oh. Yeah, yeah sure." As we took off again, I already knew that I'd be jealous. I could feel it inside me. "Hi, Doctor!" As she came through the door, my heart sank. She was beautiful. Blonde. Everything that I couldn't be. "It's good to see you again." They hugged, as she looked at me. "Rose, this is y/n. Y/n, meet Rose." I stood up, "Hi, it's good to meet you."

"Hey." She seemed very off with me, I wasn't sure why. "So, what's the plan? Where are we going?" She put down her bags, as they both laughed together at the console. Why did this feel like I was being pushed out? I hated this. I just wanted it to be us. We ended up going to this beautiful planet, it was like a diamond sky and the stars were so close to us. "You do realise that he'll never love you, don't you?" I snapped my head around, "What?" Rose glared at me. "He loves me. We've always been together. Even before you. So don't get any ideas." She turned and ran back to his side, as I felt like I could barely breathe. This is what I dreaded the most. I looked down, as they walked away. I turn and I went in another direction. I just needed to be alone. I sat beside a tree, as I watched the sky. "It's beautiful, isn't it?" I look back, the Doctor came and sat beside me. "Yeah. Yeah- it is." He frowned. "Are you okay? You just- you left." I shrugged. "I'm fine. I just wanted some space." He watched me. "How long have we been together?" I glance back at him, "Two years." I play with my hands. "So, you know I can tell when you're lying to me?" I felt his hand on mine. "Doctor- don't." I pull my hand back. "What is it?" I stood up, as I started to walk away. "Y/n, talk to me." I take a breath. "You wouldn't believe me." He crossed his arms. "Try me." I look at him. "Rose told me that you'd never love me." He looked confused. "What? Why would she say that?" I shrugged, sighing deeply.

"Is there something you need to tell me? Just me honest with me, y/n." I look back at him again. "It doesn't even matter, Doctor. Because she's in love with you and I don't fit into your narrative. I don't belong with you. She's right." He grabbed my arm. "You're not telling me the truth, y/n." I shove him back, "Stay away from me. I mean it." His eyes filled with hurt. "Are you punishing me? What is this?" I held my tears back. "You don't belong with me, Doctor. I was an idiot to think I did. This isn't what I want. I won't hold you back- I love you too much to hurt you anymore." I turn and walk away, "I've had enough of this, y/n." He stormed off, I went to go after him when I fell and slipped down this hill, I hit my head as I feel something go through my side. I flinched, as I try not to pass out. I look down, seeing blood all over my hands. "No- no, please." I couldn't move, whatever I fell on, it was sharp. "Doctor!" I screamed for him, as I cried. I lean back, as everything faded to black.

I felt warmth around me, as I began to open my eyes. I was inside the TARDIS, I'd been in the med bay before, one too many times. "Doctor?" I whispered, as I flinched. "Try not to move." He ran a hand through my hair, as he looked down at me. "What happened?" I look at him, "You hit your head. I think you fell or something." I take a breath. "I'm sorry." He looked away, "I left you. I should be sorry. You're hurt because of me." I frowned. "No. I was selfish. I just wanted to hurt you. I shouldn't of left like that." He took my hand. "When I found you- I thought that you-" he stopped, "If you die because of me, I'll never forgive myself. I'll reign hell for the rest of my life- I'll never stop." I shut my eyes again, as I felt sleepy. "This isn't your fault, Doctor." I whispered. "I can't lose you, y/n. Do you get that? I'm so in love with you that it kills me to see you this way." I gently held his hand. "It'll take a lot more than this to kill me, Doctor." I smiled a bit, "Just promise you won't go anywhere alone next time."

"I promise."