Tahimik na pumasok ako sa loob ng bahay namin. Nilapag ko ang bag ko sa couch at pasalampak na naupo duon. Hindi nako nag abala pa na buhayin ang mga ilaw.
Napahilamos ako sa mukha ko at huminga ng malalim.
What have gotten into me?!
Nilingon ko ang nag iingay kong cell phone, si Felix iyon. Baka nagtataka kung bakit hindi nya ako makita.
Dahan dahan ko iyon kinuha at sinagot ang tawag.
"Gwen? Ikaw ba yan?"
"Yeah"
"Thank God! Why did you left without even informing us?"
"I have a headache."- pagdadahilan ko at sinuklay pataas ang buhok ko gamit ang kamay ko.
"Do you want me to come over?"- bakas sa boses nya ang pag aalala.
"Wag na. You can't leave coz you're the student council president."- I reminded him.
"But——"
"I'm gonna hang up now. Bye"
In-end ko na yung call at tinakpan ang mukha ko.
Flashback
I got lost while staring at her eyes. She's so pretty and her scent is driving me crazy.
"What are you doing?"-she said while I was tracing her lips using my index finger.
Her minty breath fanned my face and damned me for thinking about what her lips tasted like.
"Gwen——"
I didn't let her finish. I sealed her lips with mine.
Mas lumala ang tibok ng puso ko. Nagkagulo din lalo ang mga paru paru sa tiyan ko. Kasabay nang paghigpit nang hawak ko sa magkabila nyang balikat dahil sa akma nyang pag galaw.
I don't know how to kiss. That's why, after giving her a little long-lasting kiss, I release her.
Pero hindi pako nakaka bawi ay mabilis na nya akong naitulak palayo.
She held her lips and gave me her signature cold look.
"I'm the President of this university. What the hell have you done, Dezmond!?"- asik nya sakin.
Instead of answering her, I just found myself running out. Running away from her.
End of flashback
I ran.I didn't even explain. I just ran away with a heavy heart.
She may not be vocal about it, but I know she's so disappointed in me.
I crossed the line tonight. And I don't know how I'm going to face her again.
I touch my lips and sigh. I wasted my first kiss on someone who was so impossible to be mine.
Masyado kasi akong nagpadala sa damdamin kaya ayan nahihirapan tuloy ako ngayon.
Kaya kayo ha! Bago mag kiss dapat kaya nyong panindigan!
Kinabukasan..
Pagkagising ko hindi muna ako bumangon. Para ngang ayaw ko na munang pumasok ngayon dahil wala pa naman kami masyadong gagawin sa school.
"Gwendolyn? Gising kana ba anak?"- rinig kong tanong ni Mama kasunod ng katok nito.
Napabuga ako ng hangin at tinatamad na bumangon.
