My Messed Up Mind

Paranoid

Warning? It may be quite unsettling for some people. So yea...

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I sometimes feel like,

They are going to strangle me some night.

They live inside the house.

With us.

At night when I went out to get a glass of water, I was stepping down the stairs in dim light.

I abruptly stopped.

I saw two of them standing outside the doors, one at my parent's and the other at my brother's room.

I had an ominous feeling.

I instinctively looked backed and saw that there was indeed one standing outside my room.

But

It was staring towards me.

I had no idea how it was staring at me without a face.

But it was.

They all were staring in my direction, I could feel the stares chilling my entire body.

I was stuck between going down and going back.

I was paranoid.

Tears about to erupt like a volcano, I hesitated.

My breathing was staggering like my steps.

I shut my eyes, sat down slowly on the stairstep I was standing on.

And prayed,

I prayed and prayed.

Until I heard a click sound.

One... Two... Three.

I had to open my eyes.

Visual hallucinations, I can understand but aiditory? That was a first.

I am crazy.

When I opened my eyes, the dull imagery came back into my mind.

They were gone.

Nothing.

Balancing my self with the rails I rose back on my feet.

I ran back to my room and closed it again as quickly as possible.

Taking in deep breaths I went straight for bed.

I should have turned on the lights.

I was too late.

When I laid back on the bed, I felt paralyzed.

I looked at the red clock shining,

3am.

No. No. I'm going paranoid.

It was there at the corner, I could feel it in the dark.

I shut my eyes again. The darkness grew darker.

My heart pounding in my ears.

Burning cheeks and cold forehead.

I opened them a while later,

It was closer than before, the distance grew shorter.

Still 3am.

Impossible.

I closed my eyes again.

Veins poping on my forehead as I sweat.

I opened them a while later,

It was a feet away from my bed.

I gulped.

At this time I couldn't muster up the courage to close my eyes again as it was still 3am.

Time was frozen like the stillness in the air.

I couldn't even dare to blink.

My breaths heavy and mind blank.

I stared,

Stared at the void.

Stared at the ominous presence.

I stared until my eyelids became heavy,

Unbearable pain.

And I passed out.

In the morning, I opened my eyes yet again,

The usual cheerful and loud routine,

The world was awake.

A single thought came to my mind.

I am paranoid.

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A/N
Me after writing this; I should probably get a therapist but that ain't gonna happen so, it is what it is folks.

:)