Seokjin centric oneshot (jin×bangtan)

crisis

An:-it was request also seokjin is Trans.

"Hyung...open the door!" Taehyung yelled. Seokjin flinched in the shower "I am coming Tae!" He said. "Come on hyung if you won't come out in next one minute I will shower with you!" He said. Seokjins eyes widened he quickly turned the tap off dried his body and covered his waist up with a towel. Panicked he stepped out. "I..am sorry...didn't meant to keep you waiting..." he said. "Woah you really came out in a minute...hyung...I was just kidding.. " he said giving his boxy smile. Jin sighed smiling a little, still not relived.

He was new afterall...he never in his wildest dream thought he'd end up in final line up of the bangtansonyeondan. He auditioned because someone asked him to when he was riding back to his home. But he is really grateful that he ended up here. They made him feel so loved and cared and he felt more free with them. And he will not risk losing their trust or his position in their group for anything. Even if it's related to himself. He shall not risk it, he will carry it off to the grave but he will never ever risk to lose them. He quickly got in his and his roommate yoongi's room, shutting the door behind not forgetting to lock the door, he doesn't wants to get exposed now does he?

He dried off his body wearing his underwear and his track pant, making sure everything was perfectly covered. "Hyung?" Someone knocked on door. "I...I am coming yoongi-chi...." Jin said, shutting out his closet and unlocking the door. Yoongi stood there, "am sorry...to keep you waiting...." seokjin said, "no..its ok what were you doing inside? " yoongi asked,

"ah nothing just wearing my clothes." He said, "you don't need to lock the door....the guys here are pretty much used to seeing each other naked now and then. They won't mind" yoongi said coming in the room, "oh I...." he can not let them see himself naked. "I..well..." Jin stammered, "you are the shy one....i get it...its ok I understand!" Yoongi said giving his gummy smile to him. Seokjin smiled back. He was so grateful for having such understanding members. However whatever happens he doesn't want to lose them.

He will be more careful next time onwards he thought. The next day they were in for dance practice they had been looking forward for this comback, since it will be their second album after their debut. It was supposed to be high-school concept, and to be honest seokjin was a bit old for the concept he was already 20! And well he wasn't the bad boy kind of guy in his high-school to be honest. He was going to be get it hard. He thought.

The choreography itself was quite powerful and quick paced and was over all what many people liked to call as "masculine" in nature. Seokjin wasn't a natural dancer but he was determined to do it! He will be able to do it. He was training hard for it. He wants to make himself worth for bangtan despite of- "seokjin...." the instructor said. And He stopped. They all did looking at him, guess he messed up. Again. He looked up with guilty eyes, hoseok their groups main dancer gave him an assuring look which somehow comfort him. He met eyes with the instructor.

"Seokjin, we have been through this...can you be please a little more spontaneous with your moves. You can not go slow seokjin it doesn't looks good." Seokjin nodded. Timidly. He knows why it doesn't looks good, it's cause he is too feminine for the group. It wasn't something that the instructor said. He knows. He knows, when he was in collage he'd get bullied for same. But he never quite understood what it even meant to be masculine? Prehaps he can never be a masculine. He never understood. But the idea of being feminine, it disgusts him. It just was something which never settled with him.

And now he was prehaps being a drawback for the same reason. "I am sorry...hyung nim..." he said. The instructor's gaze softened a bit. "Look seokjin you have been doing a lot better since trainee days. You have got a hold of it. You can do it. You just need to practice out, so that the steps come out more naturally and not as if it was done artificially. You understand? " He said. Seokjin nodded, technically speaking he isn't quite natural himself. He isn't someone whom he was supposed to be. But then he didn't even felt comfortable when he was himself. "I know you will do it! Break for an hour!" The instructor said.