Seokjin centric oneshot (jin×bangtan)

Had I known?

An:- trope:- angst

Level of angst:- medium

//tw// mentions of e*ting di*orders, b**imia, self h*rm //tw//

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Blues

From the crash of the ocean waves,
From the fall of the golden hour,
From the sky of the dying rainbows descending to the deepest blues.

He sighed, putting his pencil down. He shut his eyes for a moment, letting the stray white dots take over his vision for a bit. He heard the creak of the door, someone must have came in. And then he heard the bag being kept down with a thud and a body almost as if intentionally falling on the bed.

"Hyung-nim are you asleep?" The familiar voice of his roommate echoed. He opened his eyes blinking a little, the ink he had wrote with getting in his sight, he sat straight crumbling the piece of paper and turning around, "Ah no no yoongi....I was just pondering..." He replied. "Ohh...I see" Yoongi replied cracking his neck a little. "You must be tired....you didn't came back last night." He replied. "No hyung...I mean yeah but then I ended up sleeping in the studio" yoongi replied.

"Ahh it's ok it happens sometimes" he replied. "Did you ate breakfast? Namjoon said he didn't see you step out of the room since last afternoon" Yoongi mumbled lazily laying on the bed. "Oh...i...I actually had an assignment to do...so I was you know busy...and then..I was not able to you know come out of the room" he said a little panicky. "No no hyung it's ok...I understand university aint easy." Yoongi said trying to be understanding.

"Ah which reminds me" He said giving a quick glance to his watch, "I need to get to uni... am already late" he said getting up a little quickly and turning towards the closet. Pulling out his over coat and and a random tshirt and some of his trousers. Stepping in the shower, he stripped down and turned the shower on, the cold water hitting his back sending a cold chill around. He let out a breath he didn't knew he was holding in.

Letting his fingers get rid of the dirt from his scalp (and perhaps the headache as well) once he felt cleaner and hopefully lighter he stepped out letting the water drip off his body. He pat dry his hair trying to avoid the mirror by the sink. He wore his t shirt, slid in clean pair of boxers, put in his socks, put in his trouser and then finally the over coat to keep him warm. Ah he needed warmth after all.

He stepped out only to find Yoongi asleep. He sighed, gathered his pen, books and papers off from the desk and putting them in his bag pack and not forgetting to throw the crumpled piece of paper out he walked out. They were there doing their own things.

He just needs to step out- "hyung..." he stopped in his trails and looked back to a worrying leader, Namjoon. "Namjoon" he said smiling. "Hyung... not to intrupt but you didn't came out of your room the whole day" Namjoon said. As if on some que the distant symphony of laughs from Jungkook and Jimin came to a pause. "Umm well..." he looked down for an answer. Why didn't he came out of his room the whole day?

"We were getting worried..." Taehyung confessed. "Oh..." he mumbled. "You didn't even came for the lunch or dinner" Hoseok said. "Well...am sorry...I was busy doing this assignment I had to submit today...and I was really too busy with the job and I had to get it done so I was not able to come out..." he said. "Ahh it's ok hyung..." Namjoon said, "but..I mean..if it's ok....can you please at least come out for the meals?" Namjoon said glancing back at Jimin who looked down all red.

His eyes followed Namjoon's and had a certain understanding in them. And he gave a nod to Namjoon and a smile to Jimin. "Ok Namjoon...I will try to make it to the meals...am sorry about my behaviour." He said apogeticaly. Namjoon shook his head, "no no hyung it's not like that...we were just honestly worried" Namjoon said. He smiled reassuringly turning to step out of the house, "wait" He looked behind