Seokjin centric oneshot (jin×bangtan)

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An:-mentions of s**cide, de**ssion, bul**ia, bl**d,de*th

I know it's hard, I know you are reading this and I know that if you are reading this am not there with you so calm down and don't feel sad. Litreally, it might sound just quite bland to you right now reading it, but to put it quite honestly in words, that's how I am feeling. Like a bland bunch of stale rice which no one eats.

Funny gotta relate things with food. Anyways so to short it down and save your time, no it is not your fault. Do not blame it on yourself especially you Kim namjoon. Just cause you are the leader you don't have the right to take responsibility of everything which is bad for the group, really it is not your fault. Yoongi you don't need to feel guilty and please don't built up your emotions within yourself, you better cry(or not I don't know what my place in your life you know) but just don't muggle them in, hoseok you don't need to pressure yourself up, take things slowly and am sure everything will be alright. Trust me, one last time.

Jimin if you want to die you better die of overeating and not of starvation actually don't die that was the worst advice. I meant to say was you got taehyung for you who supports you. You got jungkook who looks up to you, you got namjoon he calls you as his "baby", you got yoongi for you who would litreally die for you, you got hoseok for whom his apple of eye is you. A piece of kind advice from your "mom"(p.s I still hate how you quoted me out as the mom and till date keep teasing me for same. I ain't your mom),

taehyung just don't cry. I know loses for you are personal and sensitive topics, but you don't need to get blue over me. This is not the time, especially not for me. Not over me, because I know what i am doing is wrong. Do not follow me. Please, am begging one last time. Jungkook? I know there might be just 3 emotions radiating through you, sadness grief and anger. And let the third one take the better of you and take down the curtains in my room push down the stuff you can find and mess up my bed. I dont mind. Don't let grief take over you nor let sadness. Neither are important. Lastly,

I will end up this note with this paragraph meant for the investigatory officers who will come on crime scene and ask questions to you, no it is not because of bangtansonyeondan that I decided to take this step, no none of my family members are responsible nor is anyone in my contact list, company, non of my ex, non of my bestfriends, no one. It is just me who is kinda fucked up in head. I didn't do it just for fun, I had my reasons which could have been solved out if I would have just opened my mouth. But here we are.

I always wish the best for bangtansonyeondan! With orwithout me. You better get that shinning trophies, and perform world wide, do bon voyages, in the soops, re continue run bangtan make music which can change the world, keep armys your top priority as a bts member always! And don't get sick during shoots and stages. Thankyou for everything that bts as a group gave me, a family, a home, a passion, a career, a life, a new shell, a new me, opened the world to me. Like a chaotic Strom but a soothing one. The one which pumps the kind of adrenaline which makes you hungry for more and more and more till you are dizzy.