Seokjin centric oneshot (jin×bangtan)

guilt pt2

(8 years ago)
"You are going to be a part of a musical group."
"A musical group? No never I dont want to be a part of musical group am a terrible singer....I want to be an actor pdnim" seokjin said. "We know seokjin, but at the moment we don't really have any plans for an acting unit....you know" pdnim said. "I......then I am sorry I can not be a part of this group...." seokjin said. "Hey hey...please....please accept the offer...we need a member just like you!" Pdnim said.

"Sir, am sorry but I think am the wrong person, because clearly am not someone who is in music, I am not even trained for singing or any particular instrument am just an actor....and I think I will appreciate a good acting agency offering me an acting contract rather than music." Seokjin said. "I can see where you are coming from....give it a chance? Like you know I know that you don't know singing and all but we can train you, we can train you to dance, sing and even produce. Like imagine won't it be a boost to your acting career that you know all about music and what if some day you actually get an acting contract and then you can actually sing the ost unlike most of the actors......." Pdnim said.

(6 months later)

"Alright guys...calm down I would like you all to meet someone" pdnim said. Everyone quited down. "Please meet Kim seokjin, he will be your new member" he said 6 pairs of eyes looked at seokjin. Head to toe. Jin was flushed out for a while. "Hi, am Kim namjoon! " he looked up and a guy with deep dimples stood there holding his hand he shook the hands with them. Still a bit hesitant. "You will live with them seokjin....you get it?" Pdnim said Jin just nodded. Too shy to speak infront of strangers.

The first night in that house was spent word less after the basic introduction neither they asked him anything nor he asked them. It was awkward for him because they seemed close knitted among themselves than him. He will never get along.

He somehow spent the night and made it to the pdnims office the very next day. "I can not....do this. I don't think pdnim, am made for acting not music..I really dont think" seokjin said. "Jin.....its ok i understand, I wont force you in anything however......i can suggest few things....we have been thinking about this project for actors so if you stick around and make a contract of just 7 years with bangtan you can join the acting unit...soon after I assure you that I will keep a place for you....and well,if there might be an acting project we will definitely suggest you for it. And even if you don't like being a part of this group you can gladly cancel this contract anytime" he said.

Seokjin thought for a while. "Can you add me in this acting thing right after the contract ends?" Jin asked. "Deal, but you can not change it in future if you change your mind....you must follow the acting contractof that time" "deal! then I will be a temporary part of bangtan" he said. Litte did he knew.

(Present day)

"You did not made an acting contract! I....hyung!" Namjoon said not believing his ears. "I did namjoon.....even though I regret it I just did made an acting contract 8 years ago....." Jin said. "You seriously really how could you?" Hoseok said feeling equally betrayed.

"Jjawa I was just 19...I knew less..." Jin confessed. "You were 19! WE WERE JUST 17 OR 15" yoongi said. "I know..." Jin said. "You don't love us?" Jimin asked. "No no...I love you guys...a lot...but...but...." "there wouldn't have been a but if you loved us...true love don't have any buts!" Taehyung said. "Voo! I love you!" Seokjin said tears breaming his eyes. "If you would have you would have told us hyung" jungkook said with a bitter tone. "There was a reason kookie...there was a reason I didn't told you at that time.....firstly I didn't knew you back then....and then...when I did got to know you, I was afraid you guys will hate me so so I didn't...and and...I thought this whole thing I could resolve it out by my own.."

"But you didn't and here we are...." namjoon said. "Yes..." Jin said feeling guilty. "Just don't....hate me..." seokjin said. "What makes you think that we should not hate you? At least we got a right knowing you don't like us...." jungkook. "Its no-" "it is like that seokjin" yoongi said. "Yoongi!" Jin exclaimed not believing his own ears. "Why jin? He got the right to be mad at you, plus...why should we even respect you?" Namjoon said rolling his eyes. "I....please try to understand we probably can still do something you know" seokjin said. "We can not...and even if we can what excatly makes you think that we will accept you as bts? You lost that status" hoseok said. "No...no guys....its ok I don't want to be in nts but...but please....don't just send me away.....please try to understand.." seokjin begged.

"Tell us again why? You yourself considered yourself as a temporary member..... temporary members need to go some or the other day, so go. Find your passion, once again" jimin said. "No my passion is music my my passion is you guys..i can not live without you...really...I swear..." seokjin said this time his tears freeing themselves from his eyes. "Go away seokjin, you don't need us.....just go away" jungkook said. "Jung-...kookie?" "Its jungkook to you" jungkook said. "Joo-" "Its namjoon to you" namjoon said. "Yoongichi?" "Just yoongi" "jimin ah?" "Just jimin..." "voo?" "Kim taehyung thats my name" "jjawa?" "Hoseok"

Jin sniffled, he messed up. But they can't be so cruel...they are his, his bangtan.....his kids..."No no no! You are joonie, your are Yoongichi, you are jjawa, you are jimin ah, you are voo and you are kookie! Mine no no...am sorry....don't don't send me away...." Jin cried. "Please pack your bag seokjin, we don't have much space for strangers in our house." Namjoon said turning away walking back to his room. Others following behind. "No no listen..please...please..." "seokjin..." he turned, it was his mother. "Its ok son, let us pack your bag and head back?" She said.

"No mom no am not going anywhere...mom this is my house...this is where..." "no! You made a mistake and they have the right to kick you out the group. Kim seokjin if you got any self respect pack your bags and come to us, you got to go to your new job as well" his father said. He blinked a little, tears falling but still followed his mother back to his room, packing away his bag. He was packing his stuff, putting away all the clothes, all the pictures, all the stuff which was his in his bag. He reached out towards the shelf for the photo album. He looked hoseok peeking in the room with sad puppy eyes, "h-" but before he could say anything he left.

"You are ready?" His father asked. Seokjin nodded sadly. "Then  let's go" he said. And they stepped out of the dorm, seokjin giving one last glance to the familiar old house. Trying to take in all the creeks and memorize them in sequence not missing any thing. "Seokjin, you fucked up" he mumbled to himself.