Seokjin centric oneshot (jin×bangtan)

Wish I knew (had i known pt2)

An:- trope:- angst

Level of angst:- medium

mentions of b*limia, e*ting di*order, self h*rm

Pretty short

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"Hyung why don't you eat this?" Hoseok said passing on some food. He blinked and looked down, "come on...it ain't that hard...you know...we just take this spoon...and we...." hoseok brought a spoonful of rice infront of the lips, "eat it..." he mumbled.

He just blinked, the cold metal spoon touching his lips tightly. "Hyung...." hoseok mumbled, eyes already stinging with the salt water. "You know....fine not rice. How about..." hoseok said looking over at the various items which were rejected. "How about some......some....some...s..."Hoseok gulped down his tears and guilt which pooled in his throat.

"I am sorry.." Hoseok said. "Am sorry hyung am sorry...but...please don't do this to me...to us....to Namjoon...to Jungkook....to Jimin...to Taehyung to Yoongi...to you... please don't" Hoseok said no more able to keep back his tears.

He got up trying to look in the eyes, hoping they'd follow him. But they didn't. They just stare ahead of him, looking at the nothingness he was in.

He stepped out of the room because what else can he even do?

"What else can we do?" Namjoon mumbled looking at the doctor. "For now. Nothing, am sorry. Other than that we can hope. That is all we can do." He said. Namjoon looked back at door which opened to open up on Hoseok who stepped out red eyed. His eyes met Hoseoks but they held nothing apart from pain and sadness. Namjoon looked down, making Hoseok turn and walk away.

"There has to be something" Namjoon looked at the doctor in glimpse of hope. "I think you don't get what am trying to say Namjoon, he is in a shock rather a coma. Although he can see, might also be able to feel, but the events just sent his body in a shock and it has shut itself. He is just in a coma...think of it as a nap. But in his case he seems to be awake. As if sleeping with their eyes open. So  all I can say to you is...we can do nothing but wait.

Waking up a person who is deeply asleep is dangerous for one the person feels sluggish and two they can get mad at you. His body might not recover if we wake him up from his coma and forcefully feed him and two his mental state can worsen even more. Am sorry but we just have to wait." He said. Namjoon sighed, but still nodded. The doctor smiled off and went ahead about his way to check up on some other patients of his.

Namjoon sat back down. His heart racing fast and hard in his ribcage. He did not wanted to hear that. It's like he has seen the film before. And he didn't liked the ending. A head rested upon his shoulder, he looked down towards it. Jimin rested his head eyes tracing towards the door leading to their hyung.

"Was it the same back then?" Jimin mumbled. Namjoon looked at him and sighed. "It wasn't the same but maybe similar" Namjoon said, " so I did responded?" Jimin mumbled. "Well...you were kind of responding but you weren't awake...you were asleep." Namjoon said. "Ohh...." Jimin hummed sadly. "We called your dad because we didn't wanted to worry your mother or your brother. So when he came you did responded a lot better but still didn't woke up.

We thought-" Namjoon let out a breath, "we thought you'd wake up soon but....you didn't. It was already past 10 days and you just didn't. And we were terrified. We didn't knew what to do. We were afraid your dad will take you home....but he didn't.....took you back to Busan thanks to Jin hyung's pleads. He let you here only because Jin hyung promised to take care of you the best way possible and promised to him that you'd never ever fall so sick again that you'd have to suffer this way.