Seokjin centric oneshot (jin×bangtan)

don't pt2

Trope:- angst

Level of angst:- medium

Ship:- namjin
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He sat there eyes closed, legs crossed and hands crossed near his chest. Mask on his face and sweat dripping off. It was still cold.

"Kim Seok-Jin?" Someone called, he opened his eyes, a middle aged woman stood there in pink scrubs a clip board in her hand her specs loosely hung on top of her head. He got up straightening his dark blue t-shirt. Walking in the room with the distinct ethanol smell and usual white walls. "Ah mr. Kim please sit" a man with white coat around him. Jin bowed to show his respect.

"So let's get started....I hope with over all treatment you fell better than before?" He asked, "I mean yeah...I sound like human and not like a dying horse so it's a sign of progress I guess" he said. "Oh jin you and your humor." He chuckled a little and said. "That's good though it means your throat is healing just fine. Now can you remove your mask and open your mouth to let me check?" He said wearing two white glows and picking up a torch.

He nodded and removed his mask and looked up opening his mouth as the man tilted his head towards himself investigating the throat thoroughly down. "All right it seems fine..but it's still a little swollen well it comes down little by little I'd suggest few more dose of ivy and please don't forget the rest period I said..."

"Why are you so stubborn?" He blinked. It wasn't like he was stubborn. He just liked it when things went according to his wish and plan. Ok maybe he was stubborn, but most of the times he was right about things. And that didn't made him the bad person. Especially he needn't be hearing from a man who che- "well. So next appointment....15 is fine?" He blinked, "huh 15?" He mumbled, "yeah..the sooner the better" doctor said.

"Oh well I have been think- well...can I confirm it a bit later?" He said, "Ah ok no need to hurry but since it's related to the treatment I'd say having a consistent time for appointment atheist for next 3 visit is very important. Hope you understand and don't go out." His doctor said. He nodded.

The sooner the better. Maybe 5 years ago was the best time. But it was him who stopped him. Held him down kissed him deep and left no space to even breath or utter words of protest. 4 years ago he was stopped when he got the call dead in the night, concerned voice of his brother gently asking him if he's been doing good. The playful sibling they were it was a bit rare to see them showcasing their worries.

So it scared him. But he tried to not make it obvious, "I saw him...." his brother said a bit slowly afraid his words would be leaked, "well what's wron-" "with a friend of his...." "maybe they were working on new mu-" "and they were drunk...." sighing he said, "yeah couple of months he got this habit am trying to get him off of those nasty things." "And he kissed his friend." "...." maybe it was the alcohol he prayed.

Maybe it was a bad choice he realized. Maybe they'll talk and shit will be cleared. It will be all a huge misunderstanding. There will not be a way he will kiss someone who wasn't him. "Hey honey wi" he began a lump in his throat, "baby...am sorry to cut you off but I need to go out of the country" he said. "Oh..." "I'll be out for couple of weeks. Maybe even a month or two..." "ohh" "can you please handle everything here? Don't worry I have told hoseok he will work things out of my side...but can you handle the things of your side?"

"You think...I can't manage myself?" He almost uttered out wanting to cry, but remained quite knowing his words will just put him in position where he already seemed so helpless will make him even more helpless. "Come back soon..." he said. And got that dimpled smile which made his heart race one night in the old drom where it leaked in rainy season and winters felt as if polar ice caps and summers as if the core of earth.