Somewhere

Wishing for Rescue

I don't feel loneliness

I don't feel your touch

Dream of your smell

I am without love

Empty and hollow

I suppose I must wait for these feelings to heal

The emotions will leave

Someday I will be presentable to the world again

Still

As I write

I am in misery

Empty of hope

And I long for you

To believe you would come back riding on a white horse is a ridiculous notion

Thank you Taylor Swift

Still

I can't help but wish someone would rescue me

Seeing as I am beyond the hand of rescue

And damaged

For I am crazy

That is what you say

Brought about with passion

Tempted to destruction

When you have been so far away

The cold calculating gaze of yours

Diagnosing my every move and step

You used to be close

We were friends

Now I terrify you

You can't look me in the eyes

I see your fear and I want to cry

I'm melting inside my mess

No help from outsiders

Everyone has left

I don't want them near

They scare me and I fear

I will go away farther

Run away from all

Elections, weddings, funerals, doctors appointments

I will run away from all if I can get out of my room

It's just too comfy here

Too comfy that I'm crying

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Shining Hercules

Glorious to all the Gods

Golden in splendor

Warm in the heart

Loving in mind

Caring to all

And I am lost in you

I want to trace the contours of your body

Making every part last in my memory

You are far away

Mulling in your own spite and problems

I touch you

This imaginary happiness between us won't last forever

For soon I will drive you mad

As I drove away others

Watch you pack your things and walk up the hill as if it were nothing

I am irresponsible and merely a child

Yet this moment makes me feel warm and imagine

The cradle of life existing between parent and child

That bond that makes me feel safe with you and you safe with me

It is not for fear that I would not wish to miss you

It is the fact that your eyes are the starlight of heavens

Your face, marble statue

You are the sweet water of the stars

So far, So near

While this fate hangs in the balance

Your liking to me, a subtle question

I wonder to myself it is really of your interest

To take me as I am

To see me for what I am

Not as what I could be

Realizing the situation where I stand

Now, lacking in self-confidence and needing someone

Anyone

To see that I mean something more to the world

More than this dull, womanly business