Somewhere

Chaos

There is sometimes nothing you can do in the end

Exhausted of all options

I am tired of keeping up with a world that does so little for me

I realize that no one will ever know me should I never do something for them

Yet I don't want to help them should they break me

I can't take another hit

Because all this frustration is finding its way nowhere

The more I try to understand the world

The more I understand that it doesn't make sense at all

We the human race on a tiny rock in space

Floating around in a meaningless existence

The insistence is to make something out of this nothingness

If you can't, the Depression will catch up with you

It has caught up with me

There is no more meaning

I find it whipped off as soon as I attempt to write it to page

I am living a life of nonsense

The doctors can't fix me and society finds me disposable

I don't blame them

I really don't blame others when there are better options out there

Yet I can't stop myself from this empty, nagging feeling

That something is amiss

Even amid chaos and disappointment