Somewhere

Alone

I am walking back down along the beach

Lights blaze from nearby apartment complexes

Empty and fake buildings

Patios looking up to the sky where I imagine lovers are hiding in secret

A lamp blazing by a bedside

A couple huddled together for warmth

It would feel so pleasurable to experience that sort of intimacy

I walk back in the dark

My hair wild

I enter the house without any fear

Then I leave it once more

It seems as uncontainable as my soul

I could run through the island and no one would know

The sky could pour itself upon me

The sharks could swim to my feet

The sea is dark and restless

Challenging

Threatening to swallow me whole

I challenge it to take me

Then I grab dinner and retreat into a secluded parking lot

Peoples' voices sound from afar

I could never be one of them

I am an alien to this world

So I sit in the dark under the shade of a tree

Licking meat with my fingers

Removed from them

A ghostly shadow in the dark

I feel so sexual and untamed

A wild animal in the darkness, trying to survive a world I can never be apart of

Removed from your arms

We both knew it was what I wanted

Now I can feel this pang

This hunger

Allow it to consume me in the most alienating form

Feeling no fear

The only degradation as my ego slips away

Losing my attachment to life

Becoming a ghost