Roommates 👹

8.

⚠️ suicide, self harm, death, blood. 😦⚠️

Cheryl pov:

New start or the end?

I thought, but I prefer the end. I can't live anymore. And if, then I'm being bombshell again. I love my old me, the biggest bitch. But Toni sadly made me soft. So I need to get her out of my life. But I'm going out of mine anyways.

I'm dizzy.

I'm walking around for 40 mins now. I'm still losing lots of blood and I know I wouldn't walk long anymore.

Everything went black.

Toni's pov:

The note is fucking my head it's 20 mins ago where I let her bath in. I don't know for how long she's away. I ran over to Veronica, with the note.  I slammed my hand against the door until sweet pea opened, I pushed him out of the way and ran to her bedroom. "Veronica help." I said and turned on the light. She immediately sat up. "Wha-" she started, but I gave her the note. She read it and gave me a worry look. "Is she for real?" I asked I worry. Maybe it's a dumb plan again.

"Yes." She returned. She stood up took on her shoes and started running. Me behind her. She ran into our room, "knife, cuts, leaving blood- notes- bombshell." She quickly said and looked on the ground outside our room. "Flashlight." She said. "Turn it on." She said. I turned the flashlight on, and we saw her blood again. After 10 mins my phone died. "Fuck." I said, but Veronica was gone. "I saw her running to- a body. "Fuuuck." I said and ran after her. I was faster so I came to Cheryl e. I fell in the ground and touched her body.

Cold

I checked her pulse.

Low

Then Veronica came. "Is she's okay?" She asked in worry. "No." I said and picked her up. I started running to the nearest hospital until I saw a car next to me.

Sweet pea

He opened the door and I got in. he drove fast. Over the limit.

The hospital

I jumped out of the car and started running again. "HELP!!"  I yelled through the hospital now with Cheryl's blood everywhere. "What's wrong?" A woman asked. "She cuts herself, went out and passed out. I found her and went to the hospital-" I started. "Bring me a lounger!" She said. I laid Cheryl on it and the doctor walked away with her. After an hour the woman came again. "How is she?" I immediately asked. " She lost a lot of blood. She is hypothermia and has a laceration on her head as a result of the impact. We cannot stitch the wounds. She will first be supplied with blood, but we cannot say if she will die or live. She had a heart attack and died for a few seconds, we brought her back to life... She will lie in an artificial coma for the time being. I'm sorry." She explained and tears rolled down my cheeks. I also heard cries behind me. I turned around to see Veronica and Sweet pea. "Thanks." I tried to say normal and she walked away. I turned around and Veronica hugged me. "She would be dead without you now. Thank you, Toni. For saving her the second time." She cried in my shoulder. I hugged back. "It's okay V, she means everything to me." I quietly said. "Guys, I need to work. See you later and stay strong for her." He said and weakly smiled. "Bye." I said and he left. "She won't be the same after..." Veronica said. "Yea. Obviously, she tried to kill Herself." I said, "no. Not that." She looked at me. "What do you mean?" I asked worried. "She has a shitty past. She was trying to bring bombshell back. That was her name in high school. She was a broken bitch until she got therapy and pills. I guess she didn't take them, so she had the thoughts in her head again. But she never forgets them. She has a reminder on her phone. Just when she really wants to. It wasn't the Only kind of time she "forgot" them. If she wanna have these thoughts she would not have to take the approximately 3 days. So it was her Plan." she broke down crying again. „But why? Everything happens yes-" I started, „cause of you. She does have feelings for you." Veronica explained.

What's wrong with feelings? „Look, it's not my story to tell..." she said, and I nodded. After all of Cheryl's test which were like 2 hours Veronica slept on my lap. The nurse came again. „Hey, how are her chances?" i asked a bit shaky, „she is okay, she's in room 247. We decided not to put her in an artist coma as it would worsen her chances. She is anesthetized and asleep. Talk to her because there is a high probability that she will fall into a coma. Now get to her room, normally the visiting time is over." she smiled, and I saw that Veronica woke up and listened. „Thank you very much." I said and got up with Veronica next to me.

Room 247

That's our collage room number. Damn. We walked to her room and quietly got in. I don't know why everyone is going quietly in a hospital room like the most of them are half death- then I saw Cheryl. She didn't get bandages because the wounds should close faster. But the bleeding stopped. A tear dropped. Veronica and I just stood there, saw from her bed. But Veronica seemed like she saw it before. She walked to her bed without even a tear in her eye. I literally see her cuts from the door. I started walking slowly to her bed and sat down on the chair next to Veronica taking Cheryl's hand. Veronica looked at me, „take the last minutes you have with her, Toni." she whispered kissed Cheryl's head and left. „Last minutes?-"

Well, I'm alone. I know Veronica was serious. But I don't know why, who's Cheryl bombshell, isn't she like her right now? Does she have 2 faces? What for pills did she normally have to take? Why didn't she take them? Why is it because of me? Is she afraid to love? And if, why? I'm confused. I don't wanna lose her. I will take a look at her arm. To see how deep her cuts are. I used to cut myself when I was around 14. So deeper the cuts so more you wanted to hurt yourself. Cutting is like payback for them self. You are mostly hating yourself, so you're having a way to show it to your own body.

I took a look at the cuts and bro they're deep. My father was a doctor, before he died. She used to teach me here and then. He died when I was 16 in car crash. I miss him. He also tried to teach me about my cuts. Of course, he saw them, you can't always hide them, ya know? Mine were like Cheryl's back then. I can't see inch by inch, but it seemed like that. He told me I could take my life with a deep cut, and he prayed that I would stop. I stopped after he died... Cause that was his biggest wish.

I laughed a little when I remembered all good memories I had with him. But then I came back to reality. To Cheryl my dear. "Cheryl, whatever Veronica meant. Don't." I whispered, "please, I adore you." I said. "Can't we just talk?", "Cheryl I like you a lot. If you die. I'll die with you. I promise." I said and fell asleep.