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Chapter 13 - Sweet Heart (Fillun)

 Chapter 13 – Sweet Heart (Fillun)

Fillun's point of view

We went to bed after the feast to welcome me back, but I wanted more. I just felt happy and wanted to be with him. I couldn't hold back.

I got the courage to go to his door, I couldn't knock, I didn't want to wake him. Plus I think I wanted to surprise him, to take him by surprise.

I asked him if we could talk, explaining that I was giddy after drinking, and I just wanted to talk for a few minutes. Bonnar looked me as I sat down on his bed. I looked at him, smiling, and because of what I was about to say, I had a little shiver.

"What's wrong, Fillun, are you alright?"

"Yes, Bonnar, I think I'm in love with you".

He said nothing and I thought it was all lost. What would he say? This man had looked after me for the last few years, fed me, protected me, kept me safe, and tried to keep me happy. If I ruined this now ...

"Do you realise that this is a change in the way we act with each other and that it may have serious consequences down the line?  You know that I have your grandmother's trust and I don't want to break that, for anything."

It felt like a kick in the balls. My head just went down and then when I looked up, I had to ask him.

"Are you saying you don't care about me at all?"

"No that's not true, Fillun.  You know I love you with all my heart.  But that kind of love is a bit different and may take us both down a path which may cause a lot of difficulty for us.  I'm not sure if you know what this may do to us."

This gave me hope and I decided to be bold. I had to do my best here, give it my best shot.

"Yes I do.  I love you with all my heart.  I don't want to be without you, and I don't want anyone else" I said

"Are you sure that this is what you want, Fillun?"

"Yes, Bonnar, I want this, I want you, I want us."

"Even when you're king? Do you know how difficult that will make things?"

"The people of Velastria will want their king to be happy.  So will my grandmother. And, I know - " I moved in to him, knowing he was just holding back , "- so do you."

Our lips met and he started to shake a little.

It seemed like he wanted this, could it be true? He looked at me in a way he hadn't before, still shaking a little.

"I want you, too, and no-one else.  Ever.  I want you with all of my heart.  Is that what you want to hear?"

Now I couldn't hold back any more. I moaned, this was just what I wanted to hear.

I smiled at him, and moved closer again. And kissed him.

Now I could tell him what I'd been waiting to say, while I was away in the abbey for a whole year.

I reached forward and whispered, "Be mine, tonight."

*** OK I've been holding off on the dirty thing, it's coming soon!  For you dirtbirds out there you're gonna enjoy :p  Plus for the romantics, one of the best chapters of the book is coming up too!

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