Sailed (GxG)

2: Fiancé

Marthae's Pov

I was staring blankly at the coffin in front of me, as I adore my lola's beauty for the last time.

That night, my dad got a phone call from someone who's using my lola's phone to inform that she died because of an accident.

Ang ambon na mahina nung bago pa siya umalis, ay bigla nalang palang bumuhos ng napakalakas, dahilan ng pagiging madulas sa daan. Pero, hindi iyon ang dahilan ng pagkaaksidente niya.

Nakita sa cctv kung ano talaga ang nangyari. May van na malakas ang takbo galing sa isang eskinita at kahit na mahina ang takbo ng sasakyang gamit ni lola ay malakas ang impact na nagawa ng van, nung hindi inaasahang magsalubong ang dalawa dahilan ng pagkatilapon ng kanilang sasakyan.

Ang based on the investigation, nasiraan daw ang van ng break, kaya gano'n nalang ang nangyari.

Three people died due to that accident and two got injured.

And my lola was one of those who died. Her, my lola's driver and the driver of the van. At ang dalawang nakaligtas lamang sa aksidente ay ang sakay sa van na amo pala nung driver.

I cried that night until no tears left. I didn't also sleep because how can I? She was just kissing and smiling so lovely at me, before she decided to go home, and I never even imagine that it will the last smile that I will see from her.

I can't help but blame my dad for it, also myself.

Kung hindi sana gano'n ang nangyari, edi sana hindi nalang pinili ni lola ang umalis.

I also blamed myself because if I begged her more that night to stay, she wouldn't have got into an accident.

Alam kong umaambon, bakit ko pa hinayaang umuwi?

I never even thought my greatest fear will come.

She's always my greatest fear, not being able to see her again is my greatest fear, and losing her at the blink of an eye, I can't accept it.

I was silently blaming myself the whole mass. Moments later, some gave their messages for her.

They called me in front for my turn, but I didn't move.

I don't want to because I know the moment I will speak, my voice will only break.

My lola also said long ago that when she'll die, she wants to be buried and not cremated.

Nung oras na upang ibaba na ang kan'yang kabaong, humakbang ako sa harap at pinagmasdan ulit ang maganda niyang mukha.

I kissed the glass that is between us, as tears are now escaping from my eyes continuously.

"I love you," I whispered.

Binigay ko rin dito ang paborito nitong bulaklak, which is white tulips, bago ako tumalikod.

Hindi ko na pinanood pa ang nangyari pagkatapos at pumunta na 'ko sa kotse namin, tsaka ko inutusan ang aming driver na tahakin ang aming bahay.

I was still wiping my non stop tears and when we arrive  I immediately went upstairs and decided to clean myself.

I was now staring at the ceiling, currently laying in bed after taking a bath, when I heard a knock. When I opened it, my father's serious face is what I see.

He motioned me to open the door so that he can enter, so I did.

I sat at the middle of my bed while he's at the edge. We are silently staring at each other when he broke the silence.

"I'm serious about the engagement, Marthae." He said full of authority using his raspy voice, maybe because of crying.

At doon na nagsimulang magngitngit ang aking kalooban.