Sailed (GxG)

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Marthae's Pov

Patuloy parin ako sa pagyuko habang nakatukod ang dalawa kong kamay sa sink.

Mas lalo ring sumakit and bukol na namumuo sa lalamunin ko at namumuo narin ang luha sa mga mata ko, buti nalang at napigilan ko pa ito dahil biglang bumukas ang pintuan ng comfort room at may pumasok.

Tahimik kong inayos ang sarili, hindi na nag-abalang mag-angat ng tingin sa dumating.

I am continuously taking deep breathes, calming myself before I slowly lift my head to check my look but was stunned when I met the familiar pair of eyes again.

She's still giving me a deadly glare but I couldn't care less because I remembered something.

Don't tell me na naiwan si Mika with Hirayle?! Shit!

Ako na ang unang umiwas ng tingin at dali-dali tinapos ang pag-aayos ng sarili. Papaalis na sana ako nang bigla akong hinawakan ni Zen sa braso at kinorner sa sink.

Each of her hand is on my side. I tried to escape but she didn't let me.

Ayoko ding magsalita dahil baka mabasag lang ang boses ko...

Nagpumiglas ako pero hindi niya talaga ako pinapakawalan kaya I ended up holding her shoulders weakly..

What is she doing now?

I'm tired. I want to go home.

Tanging malalim na paghinga lang ang maririnig sa pagitan naming dalawa. We're both calming ourselves.

Her face is also red and she looks like she'll explode the moment she'll hear something unfavorable in her ears.

I also didn't tried opening my mouth and just let it remain shut.

I won't give her the satisfaction of hearing my complains on her, I'm really exhausted by what happened on the table.

Hindi na nga niya nakaya at natiis ang pananahimik ko kaya siya nalang ang nagsalita.

"Is she the reason why you've been ignoring me for weeks?!" Madiin niyang bigkas. Ramdam ko ang galit at hinanakit niya sa bawat salitang binitawan niya.

I can also see and feel pain in her..

But wait, wala naman siyang pake sa'kin kaya bakit pa ako mag-abalang magpaliwanag?

"I'm not ignoring you. I need to go now, Mrs. Zenith, so if you'll excuse me." I saw confusion in her eyes by what I said but she shook her head and inched her body closer into mine.

Our chest touched that made my wild heartbeat, ever since our gaze met, went wilder.

"I'm not dumb, Mariel. A-Also, you're not calling me Zen anymore.." Sadness is really evident in her tone and pain is the only emotion you can see in her eyes.

Yes, I can now read hers. She's different tonight..

She's letting me read her emotions and I don't understand a thing she's acting..

But I didn't let my emotion rule me again.

Hinigpitan ko pa ang hawak ko sa kan'yang balikat at sinubukan siyang ilayo sa'kin na pinagtagumpayan ko naman.

Pero nakaramdam lang din ako ng guilt nung nakita kong mas lalo siyang nasaktan sa ginawa ko..

It pains me more just by seeing her getting hurt by what I did.. and before I'll give in again, I successfully turned my back on her.

Subalit hindi pa ako tuluyang nakalabas ay napahinto na ako sa sinabi niya..

"I-I called yesterday.. But it was a voice of someone, a w-woman, who answered it. Was it h-her?" Her voice were shaking.. I want to make her feel better, I can't handle hearing her with that voice..