Sailed (GxG)

8: Trust

Marthae's Pv

"Kung may gusto kang itanong sa'kin, itanong mo na. Mukha kang natatae." Pang-aasar ko kay Yra kasi totoo naman.

I noticed on how she keeps glancing at me since the moment I arrived at the cafe. Mukha siyang may gustong itanong ngunit pinipigilan lang ang sarili. Natatawa nadin ako kasi mukha talaga siyang natatae kasi hindi mapakali.

Naghahanda din kami para sa duty namin sa bar.

I heard her sigh before she spoke.

"N-nakita kita nung Saturday. Totoo ba yun?" Naguluhan naman ako sa tinanong nito.

"Ang alin?" Nakakunot noo na ako habang nakatingin sa kanya.

"Na ang dad-" We were cut off when we heard the bell on the cafe door rang.

Sabay kaming napalingon dito at nabaliw na naman ang gaga kong puso nang magtama ang paningin namin ng babaeng ginugulo ang aking sistema.

My favorite pair of eyes..

I automatically smiled back when she smiled at me the moment our gazes locked.

"Hello maam." Bati ng ibang staff na nasa loob din ng cafe na kaagad niyang binati pabalik. Bumaling ulit ito sa'kin bago nagsalita.

"Come with me, in my office." Was all she said, I nodded right away and followed her towards her office.

Nagtataka din ako kung bakit ako pinatawag nito. Sa pagkakaalala ko, wala akong kabalastugan na ginawa, pwera nalang sa pagkagusto sa kaniya. Joke pero not false.

These past few weeks my admiration for her deepens. At first it was fine but as time passes, I just found myself that my day is incomplete without a glimpse of her.

And I'm starting to get scared..

What if.. I'll fall for her without me knowing..?

What will happen to me? Of course I'll get hurt, big time, and I'm not ready to face that pain.

This is all new to me so I don't know how to prevent it because even if I try to avoid her, my body is the one who keeps nearing her.

Also, in the first place we all know she already have a fiancé, but the fact that she told me that she doesn't feel anything towards her fiancé gave me a light of hope.

Is it even possible to make her like me back too..? Because yes, I do like her. This is the first time I like someone and the worst part is sa taong nakatali pa.

I don't usually curse pero tangina lang.

"Hey, are you okay?" Napabalik ako sa reyalidad nung magsalita ang babaeng iniisip ko.

Naalala ko na naman na minsan na ngalang ako magkagusto sa may sabit pa. Napairap tuloy ako sa kaniya na ikinakunot ng noo niya.

I froze after realizing what I did because she just gave me her irritated face and dagger glare.

"What's wrong with you?! If you have a problem with me, tell me. Hindi yung irap-irap ka diyan, hindi naman bagay." Binulong pa niya yung huling salita pero narinig ko naman kaya napatawa ako ng mahina na nagpairita lalo sa kaniya.

"And now you're laughing! Mind telling me why? Is there something funny on what I said Marthae?!" Sabi niya na dahilan ng pagtigil ko at pagbilis na naman ng tibok ng puso ko.

Shemay talagang epekto niya sakin tuwing binabanggit niya pangalan ko.

I looked away and tried to calm my stupid heart that is stupidly reacting like crazy just because of the woman who did nothing but only pronounce my name. Damn, malala na ata ako.