Sailed (GxG)

36: Fear

I know I said na baka hindi na ako makpag-ud this month pero sinapian ako ng kasipagan at I used my free time to write since my schedule will be more hectic starting Nov. 7 kasi araw-araw na may classTvT. Anyways, advance happy all souls and all saints day! I hope y'all are doing good and are all safe.<3

Marthae's Pov

Ecstasy. That's what I'm feeling at the moment.

An overwhelming emotion that I think I might explode any moment, because of the happiness I felt.

So overwhelm to the point that fear slowly crept into me.

Fear because I'm afraid when the sun comes, all of it is just a dream, or an illusion rather.

Fear because I'm afraid that she'll change after this night. I do trust her, but I just can't avoid overthinking of the what ifs that might happen and the aftermath of my decisions.

"What are you thinking?" My thoughts immediately vanished after hearing the angelic voice of the woman hugging me underneath the comforter.

I blushed after realizing that we're both naked under it and I can feel her warmth, skin to skin.

I also can't believe that we really did 'it'. My center is sore, but the pain is bearable. I reached the heaven twice and after that, she decided that we'll both rest.

I should now be sound asleep because the activity we did is quite an energy consumer but overthinking hit me, reason why I was unable to peacefully rest after what we've done.

I turned to face the woman beside me when I felt her kissed my cheek.

Nakaunan ako sa kan'yang kanan na braso habang ang kaliwa niyang kamay ay nasa pisngi ko, caressing it.

Our eyes met which made my heart beat wildly again. Gosh, her never ending effect on me..

I stared at her breathtaking beauty. It really feels surreal having this moment with her and seeing her beside me.

Sinong hindi mag-ooverthink kung nakikita mo ang d'yosang nasa tabi mo, na inaakala mong hindi mo na mayayakap ulit ng gan'to. Na inaakala kong hindi ko na mahahagkan at mahahalikan pa ulit...

Her light brown eyes are looking at me worriedly, silently asking of what's bothering me.

I slowly lift my right hand and also caress her cheek.

The moment she felt the warmness of my hand, it made her close her eyes and feel the warmness of it more.

I traced her closed eyes using my thumb, slowly trailing it up to her cute nose, until it reached her perfectly sculptured lips that I always want to taste whenever I have the chance to..

I pressed my thumb into her lower lip. Dahan-dahan siyang dumilat at nagtama ulit ang aming tingin, until she slowly opened her mouth and sensually suck my thumb, that is still on her lip, while locking her gaze with mine.

Napasinghap ako dahil sa ginawa niya, kasabay non ay naramdaman ko ang pag-init ng magkabila kong pisngi.

She looks hot while doing it..

She chuckled at my reaction before letting my thumb go. Sayang, I want more- charot.

I heard her release a sigh, hindi ko namalayang natulala na naman pala ako habang nakatitig sa kagandahan niya.

"Mind if I ask what is really bothering you, baby? You can ask me anything.." She now looking at me worriedly again. I can also feel the tiredness of her voice but she still fought the urge to sleep.