Sailed (GxG)

10: Tonight

Marthae's Pov

Katahimikan ang namayani sa pagitan namin, hindi nakakailang na katahamikan, kundi komportable.

We are both facing the sea while she's sitting beside me. Yes, I brought her to the same spot where I always kill my time and the place where she saw me crying.

She's still wearing my sweater that I let her borrow a while ago but I noticed how my piece of sweater is not giving her enough warmth.

Bahagya kasi siyang nakayakap sa sarili kaya alam kong nilalamig padin siya.

Ako din naman nilalamig kasi simpleng t-shirt lang ang suot ko pero keri lang naman, kaso ang Zen niyo mukhang sensitive sa lamig.

"Lean closer." I sofly mumbled while turning my head towards her direction.

She seem confused to what I said so I was the one who adjusted and leaned closer to her.

Akala niya ata 'yun lang ang gagawin ko kaya hinayaan niya ako pero ang sumunod kong ginawa ang nagpatigil sa kan'ya.

Since I am not contented with just leaning my head on her shoulder, I shifted my whole body to face her habang nakatagilid siya sa'kin kasi nakatanaw padin siya sa karagatan..

Lumapit pa ako sa kaniya at niyakap siya pagilid. I felt her stiffened by what I did and she was about to distance herself but I spoke.

"Please let me.." I weakly mumbled while my face is burried on the side of her neck.

I really love her sweet scent and it's addicting.

"What are you doing Marthae? You're so close." Mahinahon niyang sabi.

"Call me by the name you used earlier." Alam kong hindi ako bingi para hindi marinig na tinawag niya ako sa nickname kong gawa ng lola ko.

"What?" She confusingly said and still trying to get off on my hug but I didn't let her. Instead, I tighten my hug on her.

"First favor Zen, let us stay like this until I'll get enough." But I don't think I'll ever get enough hugging her.

I feel so safe and the warmness she's giving me gives me comfort through out my whole system.

It's like the wild waves inside me calmed down and I never felt this at ease before. And I know one thing that this woman wants, I will gladly give her anything, sa abot ng makakaya ko..

"What favor are you talking about and what name are you saying?" Alam kong nagmaang-maangan lang siya.

"Hindi ka magaling magpanggap." Natatawa kong sabi sa leeg niya.

Naramdaman ko kung paano manindig ang balahibo niya malapit sa leeg kaya medyo napalayo ako ng kaonti para hindi siya tuluyang maging unkomportable.

"Please move away.." She weakly said. Naramdaman kong onti-onti siyang nanghihina na ikinataka ko.

Is she that uncomfortable by me..?

And with that thought, it made my heart flinched. I don't want her to feel uncomfortable around me kaya kahit labag sa loob ay binitawan ko na ang pagyakap sa kan'ya pero hindi ako lumayo.

Nanatili ako sa gilid niya at piniling itagilid ang ulo para sa karagatan ako nakatitig, habang may hindi maipaliwag na mukha.

"Are you that uncomfortable with me? I'm sorry.. " I whispered at bahagya na akong lumayo.

Thinking that she's not comfortable with me this close to her because she doesn't want my presence made me feel disappointed on myself and to what I have acted.