Sailed (GxG)

34: Table

Marthae's Pov

"Why don't you try and look for someone else already, Marts? I know that it's hard but also learn to move forward. It's been seven years, gosh. Ang rupok mo naman!" I chuckled without any trace of humour after hearing what Yrah said.

We're currently at my condo unit, drinking.

Ay, ako lang pala 'yung umiinom. She was about to surprise me by paying me a visit but she was the one who ended up surprised after seeing me in my state.

Naabutan niya akong umiinom at nagdradrama sa sala. Hindi din naman hard drink ang iniinom ko, OA lang talaga siya mag react.

In fact, I am just drinking a bottle of wine but here she is, scolding me because of it.

"As what you said, it's not that easy Yrah... If I can, do you think I am that stupid to chose and let myself suffer loving a woman who can't even choose me?" Hinanakit ko dito.

Gago, natamaan agad ako ng wine?!

"Give me that!" I shouted and gave her a glare after she stood up from sitting in the couch and went to me just to grab my wine glass.

I can't also stand kasi tinatamad ako and I can also feel my head spinning.

Damn, anong klaseng wine ba 'yung ininom ko at bakit ang lakas naman yata ng tama?

"No. Tumigil kana nga, Marthae! Gago may plano kabang tunawin ang atay mo sa isang gabi?"

"What atay are you talking about? It's just a wine, you're exaggerating things! Now, give me that!"

"This stupid drunk woman. Tanga! Kanina pa ubos 'yung isang bote ng wine, whiskey na 'yang iniinom mo!"

Wait.

What?!

How? Huh? Ha?

I don't know if anyone can answer my stupid questions but I don't care. And minutes have passed, I just found myself silently sobbing as tears kept on falling from my eyes..

"Ganito ka pala malasing, Marthae. Gaga ka, tahan na.. I'm always here.." I cried more the moment I felt her sat beside me, here in the carpet of my living room, and hugged me from the side.

"I swear I tried, Yrah.. I tried diverting my attention and did my best just to get over her but I just c-can't.." I continuously said in between my sobs.

I felt her hug on me tightened then I heard her murmur something that I wasn't able to hear clearly because I'm more focus on my ranting and letting ny emotions out.

"I can't handle the drunk Marthae any longer. I need help, punyeta."

She just let me rant in her arms until I suddenly became tired and calmed down a while after.

"Oh, tapos kana? Kasi maglilinis na ako. Alam ko na kung bakit hindi ka umiinom, gan'to ka pala 'pag lasing." Kumalas siya sa pagyakap sa'kin at saka ako tinulongan para mahiga sa couch.

Wala na akong maintindihan sa mga patuloy na pagsasalita niya dahil sa sobrang hilo at pagod na nararamdaman.

Pinikit ko nalang ang mga mata ko at ninamnam ang kalambotan ng couch ko.

Ang gusto ko nalang ay matulog.

I softly giggled. Gosh, I didn't know I have a soft couch in my own condo unit. I wonder what Yrah is now doing. I think she's talking with someone right now

I half-open my heavy eyelids just to take a look of what she really is doing and I'm right! May kausap nga siya, pero dahil wala naman akong pake ay pumikit ulit ako.