Daughter of the Moose (sequel to 'Married to a Moose')

Chapter 48

I laid down in my bed and put my earbuds in. I played some gentle songs and just thought. I had a million questions running through my mind.
What other powers did I have?
Was I going to lose control of my powers?
Would we ever find a way to get the info out of my head?
Why would my parents have been making me do stuff?
What were they making me do?
Why do my dad and Dean still love me like this?

Eventually, my brain got tired of the questions and I fell asleep.

~Sam's POV~

"Dean, I'm really worried about Alex. She's been in there a while, plus I can't imagine how hard this is for her."

"I think she's ok being in there this long. You used to be the same way when you were younger. I remember when I first told you about dad and monsters and everything. You just wanted to be alone for a while to process everything. And yeah, I'm sure this is really hard for her, but she is strong just like her mom. Just like you."

"I didn't know I was like that..... What do you mean she's strong like me? I am anything but strong."

"Look Sammy, I'm not a very sentimental person, but you are one of the strongest hunters and people I've ever known. We've been through more than most, yet you never stopped fighting. You lived through Mom dying, and Jess, and Alex's mom, the hundreds of times I died, and I went to hell for crying out loud. But you never stopped fighting. You pushed through everything no matter how painful it was and probably even still is. I know you have the guilt that isn't yours to deal with for all of that, yet you still hold on and keep pushing forward. You are the strongest person I know. And I really do hate getting sentimental, and I know we have our moments, but you are a great little brother." Dean told me with the hint of a tear glistening in his eye. I wanted to cry a tear of happiness, but didn't. It was weird to think that Dean actually thought I was strong and that he knew about the guilt I carried.

"Thanks Dean. For the record, you are the strongest person I know. You too have been through a lot and never stopped continuing with this hunting stuff and supporting me. I know this mark has caused us both so much trouble, but you haven't given up, and that shows a lot of strength Dean. You can get through anything, and I know the mark complicates some stuff, but I meant what I said a while ago. We will get through this. All of it. Although you and I don't always agree on things, and can get on each other's nerves, I couldn't imagine having a better brother." He pulled me into a hug and surprisingly, neither of us really felt awkward about it. It was appreciated by both of us.

"I'm gonna go check on Alex." I said after we let go of our hug. Dean nodded.

I walked into her room. She was asleep in her bed with earbuds still in her ears. I walked over to her and gently pulled the earbuds out of her ears, being sure not to wake her in doing so. I read somewhere that if you sleep with headphones on, you can end up getting them wrapped around your neck and choking yourself, so out of superstitious caution, I took them out. She looked so unpeaceful despite her being asleep. I pulled the covers up to her shoulders and grabbed her green blanket which had since fallen on the floor. I placed the green blanket on her and almost instantly, her body relaxed and she finally looked like she was comfortably asleep.

I don't know what it was, but there's just something about seeing your child asleep, like you are the one responsible for raising them, like it's my duty to make sure she stays safe and right now she was in a tough spot and was dealing with a lot. I questioned how I was doing as a father- with all she is going through, I was wondering if I was being there for her enough. I ended up sitting in the desk chair with my head in my hands just thinking.

"Dad?" She suddenly spoke up. "What's wrong? Why do you look upset."

"I'm not upset exactly, I'm just thinking. I didn't mean to wake you."

"You didn't wake me. I just happened to wake up. What are you thinking about?"

"How I'm doing as a father."

"Why do you possibly need to think about about that?"

"Because I told you not to push me away, yet I haven't exactly been giving you a chance to talk to me about it which is basically hypocritical. I'm the one who is supposed to raise you to be an amazing person, which you are, but I'm also supposed to keep you safe and be here for you."

"You are an amazing dad. Don't think you aren't."

"I still feel like I'm not here for you enough. I feel like you aren't ok with coming to me except for that one time the other day and you never go to Dean anymore."

"I'm sorry I haven't been going to you. I've just always had to hold my emotions in, so it's hard to talk about stuff, and now, I'm scared if I do talk about it, my powers are gonna go off again."

"You shouldn't hold emotions in. It's not good for you. Let me ask you a question."

"Go ahead."

"You love and trust me right?"

"Yeah of course."

"You love and trust Dean right?"

"Yeah."

"Then let us talk to you. We want you to tell us anything on your mind and your emotions about us, about this powers stuff, about anything. We are ok with you crying or anything. We just want you to get it all out so you can relax a little and be less upset."

"Ok."

"Do you want to do it now or in the morning?"

"Morning if that's ok."

"That's fine. I'm sorry I woke you." I said, feeling bad that I made her wake up.

"Don't apologize dad. Thanks for putting the blanket back on me."

"No prob kiddo. I love you Alex. See you in the morning."

"I love you too dad." She said before I headed out.

I left the room and went back to Dean. We researched for a little bit before I asked him a question.

"Dean, would you be willing to sit down with me and Alex tomorrow morning and listen to her get everything off her chest? I got her to agree to sit down with us and told her she can tell us anything- it can be about us or the stuff we are going through, anything. She has lot of stuff she holds inside and a lot of emotions."

"Yeah, of course Sammy. If she needs to say stuff, I'll be willing to listen."

"Cool. We'll talk to her in the morning then. In the meantime, I'm going to bed. It's getting late."

"Ok. Night."

"Night." I said with a smiles and headed to bed.

A/N

Hey guys! I hope you all enjoyed this part. I really enjoyed writing a nice little dialogue between Sam and Dean. I honestly feel like in the show they really feel that way about each other but are afraid to say it so I threw it in there.

How are you liking plot about Alex? Are you ready for her to talk about everything? Next chapter Is probably going to be super serious, but I feel like every so often, I end up making part of Alex be my personality- like if it were me, I would do what Alex is doing- want to get it out to people I trust.

Thanks for reading everyone. I'll update soon.