Daughter of the Moose (sequel to 'Married to a Moose')

Chapter 49

~Sam's POV~

I got up in the morning and saw Alex and Dean at the table eating breakfast.

"Morning, guys." I said

"Morning, Sam."

"Hey, dad."

I grabbed a bowl of cereal and joined them. We ate mostly in silence, but it wasn't awkward. There just wasn't much to say. We all finished our bowls and put them in the sink. Alex looked at me shyly and nervously.

"What's up Alex? You look nervous."

"It's just that you said we would talk this morning and I'm nervous about it that's all."

"Don't be nervous. We are both gonna listen and we aren't gonna judge you. We can do it whenever you are ready."

"Can we do it now?"

"Sure." Dean and I said. We followed her into her room.

~Alex's POV~

I was so freaking nervous. I was gonna tell them everything I had going on in my mind and everything I was feeling.

"Ok, to make this easier for all of us to follow, first, tell us anything about this powers stuff." my dad said, sitting in my desk chair.

"Ok. First off, thanks for being here for me through all of this. Here goes- this is probably just gonna be a rant-" I took a deep breath "I'm terrified that my powers are gonna escalate and I'm gonna end up killing you or something. I know you told me why already, but it still blows my mind as to how you could still love me, being the monster I am. I hate how my life is crashing down around me. I hate these stupid powers. I hate my stupid adoptive parents. How could they do that to me? They betrayed me. No wonder they didn't want you to know who I was. I hate this world we live in. I hate demons and monsters and everything. I don't know what to do anymore and I.... I just don't know. I feel pain and sadness and hatred and betrayal and uggggggggh. I'm just sick and tired of not knowing what is happening to me." I ranted out, getting progressively faster, and somehow they caught everything

"Ok. I don't think your powers are going to escalate as long as you really try not to get pissed or too upset. Of course we still love you. You can't just not love someone because you found out something about them, especially when they are family. I know you may not feel capable of loving yourself right now, but we do." My dad said.

"I know what it feels like when it's like your world is crashing down. I know it sucks, but trust me it gets better. I agree your parents were stupid. They shouldn't have hurt you especially like this. For that, I am sorry. I know it seems like we aren't doing anything about this stuff, but we are trying, and all your emotions are valid." Dean added.

"I love you guys too. I'm trying to love the person I am, but it's so tough. Don't be sorry Dean. It's not your fault my parents were betraying me. I know you guys are trying your best to find a way to get this info out of my subconscious, but I also kind of don't want you to."

"Why not?"

"If I have that dangerous of information, I don't know if they put some idea in my head that makes me act on that knowledge. I just don't want to kill or hurt you guys."

"We'll see if we can find anything, and if we do, you can choose." My dad said. " Now, anything you want to get off your chest about us? I swear neither one of us will be mad about what you say. Right Dean?"

"Yeah. Exactly." Dean said, 100% seriously.

"Ok. Umm...." I said, taking a deep breath. "You promised you wouldn't be mad, and I'll let you respond after each one cause you might get pissed. I'm just getting my thoughts and feelings out..... I think you are both pathetic. Not in the way you think." I said as they gave me hurt looks. "I mean you have so much guilt about everything. You carry guilt that isn't yours to carry. Specifically, dad, you don't need to carry the guilt about your mom or Jess or my mom or anything about me. None of that is your fault."

"That's what I've been trying to tell you Sammy." Dean chimed in.

"This goes for you too Dean. You haven't told me a whole lot about it, but you hold a lot of guilt that I'm sure you don't need to hold. You guys are both amazing, but it's pathetic all the guilt you guys hold." They didn't give a response to that. "I'm not saying I'm not the same way, but it hurts me to know you carry all that pain and sorrow and guilt when you shouldn't be."

"Anything else?" Dean asked sadly, trying to change topics slightly.

"Yeah, this isn't anything bad.... Thank you both for being here for me. Dean, you were the first true friend I ever had, and you were the first person I trusted and bonded with. I just want to say thanks for being here for me with everything."

"Of course. I'm always here for you." He said sincerely and perked up a bit.

"Dad, I may not have instantly felt comfortable going to you with things, but when I did, you were there for me. It didn't matter what I wanted to talk about, it didn't matter how much I yelled or cried. You were there for me. I know it may be what you are supposed to do as a dad, but you never had to be there for me. So thank you."

"Hey, kiddo. I'm always gonna be here for you. Not just because I'm your dad.... Because I love you and care about you so much." I nodded gently.

"Last thing....can you each do me a favor?"

"Yeah. Anything." They responded

"When you guys are upset about something or something is bothering you, will you please talk to me about it. Not only does it kill me to see you so upset, but it is annoying and hard to play the guessing game and try to figure out what's wrong and who caused it. It's just a mess and gets me stressed out. You've been pretty good about that, but sometimes it takes some pushing to get you to talk. And also, please don't treat me like I'm some fragile little thing. I'm still Alex. Or at least I'm trying to be."

"We will talk to you when stuff bugs us ok? And we aren't trying to treat you like you're this fragile thing, it's just we don't know what you can do, and we don't want to set you off. It's not meant as being mean." Dean said.

"I know you aren't trying to be mean, but when you do that, it makes me feel like you think I'm a monster and you're like trying to 'stay on my good side' in a sense."

"I'm sorry Alex. We'll try to stop. We don't want you to feel alienated."

"It's ok. And I'm sorry if I offended you guys about the guilt stuff. You told me I could voice my opinions, so I did."

"It's fine Alex. I hope this helped you feel better." My dad replied

"It did. Thanks for suggesting it dad. Now what's the plan for the day?"

"Research."

"Great." I said sarcastically, then chuckled- soon joined by my dad and Dean's laughter.

A/N

Hey everyone! Sorry for the lateness on updating. I was dealing with stuff at school and just a tough time I was dealing with with a close friend. I'm much better now, so I'm gonna try to update more regularly again. Thanks for being patient. :)