Ladies' Night (Lesbian)

Chapter 25

My head is spinning.

I can't put words sa revelation ni Emery tonight.

I just..

Pinagmamasdan ko nang maigi ang mukha ni Emery habang natutulog sa tabi ko. She looks very peaceful though, parang wala namang nagbago dahil si Gabrielle parin ang nakikita ko.

But what if Gab is the alter ego at si Emery ang totoong may-ari ng katawan?

My God.

What would i do? I mean i truly love Gabrielle but Emery? Will i love her as much as i love Gab?

Agh. I don't know...

Marahan at maingat kong hinaplos ang mukha ni Emery. I wish i could answer her question though pero nalilito pa ako but who i am kidding of? Para akong nakabuy take one kahit sino man ang piliin ko. It's just that.. I have to accept them both especially Emery.

Or maybe matutunan ko din syang mahalin in the future.

Napaisip ako if dual personality can be cure?

"No, DID can't be cure." Biglang sumagot si Emery at unti-unting bumukas ang mga mata nya. "Psychotherapy, Hypnotherapy, Adjunctive therapy——they all failed us."

Napalakas ata ang sabi ko, i thought it was only in my head.

Emery's stares make me speechless, her eyes are so soulful. "Until Gab and I agreed." She gently caresses the side of my face. "And this will be forever Mia."

I'm pretty sure Emery calls me Mia not Mira.

"Was it.. hard?" Ang tangi kong natanong. Curious din naman ako sa condition na dual personality because i thought it's only happens sa books or movies but now a living proof is in front of me. "I mean to——"

Ngumiti si Emery. "Lahat naman mahirap sa una diba? Because it took years for Gabrielle to consolidate herself. To manage the fuse and hatred."

"Hatred?"

Titig na titig kami ni Emery sa isa't isa. "With the only person i trust before."

Napaisip ako bigla sa mga nakaraang pangyayari para malaman kung sino ang tinutukoy ni Emery then i remember him. "But he is your father."

"He was." Pagtatama ni Emery.

Hindi ako kumibo as if Emery is going to open another chapter for me. "When i was 12 my family used to be so perfect Mia, Radish was only months old. My mother was a happy wife until my impertinent father ruined everything for another woman."

I noticed na nagluluha ang mata ni Emery, i feel touch dahil kung tutuusin this will be the first time na makikita ko syang umiiyak, not even Gabrielle. I also know that i need to hear this para mas maintindihan ko ang nangyayari, kung ano yung nagtitrigger sa switching nilang dalawa. But more importantly, I want Emery to feel comfortable with me.

"My mother got really depressed." Pagpapatuloy ni Emery. "Like she had to battle with her own demons until she couldn't anymore." Napapikit si Emery as she cries. "She killed herself."

Though i already know a little details about it, naspeechless parin ako and i honestly don't know how to comfort her kaya naman all i can do is hug her.

"I hate him! I hate my father!" Galit na galit si Emery.

Marahang kong hinaplos ang likod nya. "It's okay, it's okay baby."

Lalong kumapit si Emery sa damit ko. "I hate him Mia but.. he's my father."

Medyo natigilan ako.

Lumayo ako ng kaonti kay Emery at pinagmasdan ang mukha nya. I just realized na Emery actually still love his father and maybe actually forgiven  him of what happened. But Gabrielle is another story.