Ladies' Night (Lesbian)

Chapter 26

My feet moves on it's own accord.

And the last thing i realize ay tumakbo ako palabas ng event hall.

Pinagtitinginan ako ng mga tao but i didn't care at all. I just...

Paano?

Why he's here?

My heart breaks by just realizing what i did——napaiyak ako ng todo because i feel so horrible about myself.

Nakakahiya ako....

"Mia.." Boses ni Emery from behind me. "Mia?"

Pero ayaw tumigil ang luha ko.

Hindi ko din alam kung paano haharapin si Emery nang ganito. Paano ko ipapaliwanag ss kanya at sa pamilya ko ang lahat.

Napahigpit ng kapit ko sa pintuan as i tried to stop myself from sobbing. "O...o.." But damn, it's too difficult to speak that all i want to do is drop myself down and cry horribly.

Biglang hinawakan ni Emery ang braso ko. "What's happening?"

Pinahid ko ang luha ko with remorse written all over my face.  "Wala.. wala Emery ."

But then she slowly turn me around to face her.

Emery's beautiful face is so emotionless but her eyes are burning holes on my face. "Mia." Her voice makes me even more weak. "Please tell me why are you crying." She caresses the side of my face very gently. "I will listen to you, i won't judge and i will love you always."

Once again, tumulo ang luha ko sabay pikit dahil nalilito ako if i were to tell her everything——all my secrets, mistakes and nightmares.

Emery caresses my cheek with so much love in her eyes. "Try me."

Gosh, those words give me hope that somehow they will accept me after all pero hindi pa nagsisink in sa utak ko ang nangyari today.

Tumango ako but.. "Gusto ko nang umuwi."

Ngumiti si Emery, there's no single disappointment in her face. "Of course." Her hand reach for mine and lace our fingers together. "I will take you home."

"But they need you here." Hindi ko napigilang sabihin. I know this event is important for her and i don't want to be selfish to take her away.

But Emery walk past me. "You need me more." At hinila na nya ako para lumabas ng ampunan.

I admit na Emery make feels very secure and safe na as if I'm very respected.

Walang kibo kami sa byahe but she still holding my hand habang nakatingin lang ako sa labas ng bintana ng kotse as my mind drifted somewhere else——to a place with full of regrets.

I vividly remember the look of his face as if i mirrored myself through him and those eyes are very similar with Ivy.

Matagal ko nang iniisip na paano kung hindi ko ginawa?

Na paano kung binalikan ko sya?

How can i forgive myself though?

Pagkauwi ay walang salita na dumaretso ako bathroom to just cry my heart's out. Natatakot akong harapin sina Mama at Papa dahil sa hiya na nararamdaman ko ngayon. Nanliliit ako...

"Anak?"

Lalo akong napaiyak by just hearing her voice. My mother who gave birth on me and raised me to be better person——woman. I feel so horrible, i failed as a person, daughter and as a woman.

"Kakain na tayo Anak." Salita ulit ni Mama.

Huminga muna ako ng malalim bago sumagot. Ayaw kong malaman nyang umiiyak ako. "Susunod na po ako." But still my voice failed as it shakes.