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title insp: Nerves - DPR IAN•••
shit shit shit shit- it wasn't supposed to end up this way. soonyoung didn't intend for this at all! i-it was only a few jokes a-and being playful! that's all! isn't that what friends do? they... they joked with each other right? this was all a joke. it was meant to be light hearted and with no meaning. but somehow, trying to tell jihoon this didn't seem right. maybe soonyoung really didn't believe it himself.
oh... but he really didn't mean to. now he's got jihoon standing here and sobbing like there's no tomorrow. oh please keep it down! he didn't want any of them coming in and making him explain himself- argh! trying to explain to just jihoon was hard enough already.
"you're not going to say anything?" jihoon's teary voice mumbles. soft hands come up to messily rub at his cheeks and his nose, harsh sniffles prompting soonyoung to offer the tissue box to the crying boy. jihoon takes two gratefully.
soonyoung treads carefully, "i didn't mean to-"
"so they were all meaningless?!" jihoon's yell comes out strained and soonyoung winces at the noise. it sounds painful. maybe that's what jihoon was truly feeling. pain. betrayal.
"jihoon. there's no nice way to say it. i really didn't intend to lead you on. i thought it was just fun and games. just harmless jokes." soonyoung said. it seems like he summoned another wave of tears.
"i can't believe you!-" jihoon chokes on his words, tumbling to the floor. he doesn't feel like holding himself up any longer. soonyoung rushes to his side. he holds jihoon's upper body close to him. soonyoung wipes tears away with his thumbs. finally looking into jihoon's overflowing, naive eyes, soonyoung feels crushed. he feels ashamed and hates his past self for not seeing it coming. he feels full of remorse. now being this close to jihoon's warmth, he feels the pain.
"all those nice words, those late night text messages, those calls... the way you said my name. the days you'd surprise me with special deliveries..." jihoon shakes his head, trying to rid those memories flooding back to cause him more pain. "you did all that as a joke? and expected me not to fall for you?" he laughs soullessly in soonyoung's arms, "you must be a psychopath."
a single tear drops down soonyoung's cheek. his features break out into the beginnings of a cry. he holds jihoon tighter to him and whispers, channeling every emotions he's ever known, "i'm so sorry, ji,"
"i'm so... fucking sorry."
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Short Storytitle from 999<3 by Kid Milli one shots , mostly seventeen argh, i write the same three pairs anyway (HEAVY one shots indicated!!) edit: some are cross posted on AO3! link in bio:3