BEAUTIFUL MESS (AS #1) Completed [REVISING]

Kabanata 52

Confess

Tiningnan ko siya.

"Tristan, I want to see him." I pleaded.

"One day, baby. One day." he smiled then kissed my temple.

At ngayon ko lang napansin na wala na ang kaniyang beards at moustache. Maaliwalas na ang kaniyang mukha ngayon ngunit ang mahaba niyang buhok ay nanatili pa rin.

"I'm speechless about what Hope told me. I still can't believe it." umiling-iling ako.

"Paano na lang kung galit sa akin si Hiro, Tristan? Anong gagawin ko? Paano kung kamuhian niya ako?"

He leaned me against his massive chest and gently stroke my hair.

He sushed me. "Don't think that, I'm sure that boy probably misses you."

I feel the vibrate in his chest as he spoke.

"I hope so."

Sana lang talaga ay walang galit sa akin si Hiro dahil hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko kung mangyari iyon.

Biglang may sumagi sa isip ko. Who provides for his needs? Where does he live? Does he eat at the right time? Is his bed soft?

Napapikit ako at buntong-hiningang dumilat.

I'm still speechless about what I know.

"Thank you for giving birth to him, Ryne. I know you can choose not to continue the pregnancy with him but I am thankful that you gave birth to him." he said out of the blue.

"I'm his mother in a first place. He's the light of my darkness life. You know what?"

"Hmm?"

"When I found out I was pregnant with him, nagkaroon ng direksiyon yung buhay ko. I started to plan my future with him. I search what the Do's and Dont's in pregnancy. At sobrang saya ko noong unang beses ko siyang nahawakan. He was like a gift to me from the Almighty in all that I went through because my life is a mess back then and he make it beautiful. It's like he vanished all my worries and problem away."

"That's why I am so devastated when Hiro took from me. But, right now.." tiningala ko siya at ngumiti. "I'm so grateful because you came to me-you are here-Hiro is here. I'm not asking for anything because Hiro is already here. Thank you for staying with me, mahal." I kissed his jaw.

Naramdaman ko ang kaniyang paninigas kaya umahon ako mula sa pagkakasandal sa kaniya at pinulupot ko ang aking braso sa kaniyang leeg.

Mapupungay na mata, makapal na kilay, matangos na ilong, at umiigting na panga. I can't believe that this man is mine.

I smiled.

"And, yes. I remembered you." sambit ko at hinalikan ang kaniyang noo dahil tulala pa rin siya hanggang ngayon.

"Breath, Tristan." paalala ko.

Humugot siya ng hininga at marahas itong binuga. Natawa ako.

"Should I marry you right now? I can call my lawyer friend to get us married." aniya.

Humalaklak ako.

"I'm serious, babe." his jaw clenched.

Huminto ako sa pagtawa at nagseryoso rin.

"Babe, let us not hasten marriage. It's not that I'm rejecting you but you know... I want our son to be in our wedding. Is it okay?"

Hindi siya sumagot sapagkat nakatitig lang siya sa akin.

"Ganito na lang, once we get married, sundan na natin si Hiro."

Lumiwanag ang mukha niya at sumimangot naman ako.