Meant to be?

Recovery

Kudos to Bruh_I_Cant_Write_ For the amazing art above! I'm literally blown away, this is so good! Great job!!! I'm going to start using her art at the top of chapters, so make sure to check it out!

Shout out to brigHt_orange_juIce! She's a great editor and a really sweet person, can I get a huge round of applause for her? This is her first chapter for me, and she did a great job, so thank you Orange!

I apologize in advance for the short-ish chapter!

TW's:
None!
Please do not hesitate to let me know if you find any triggers in the following chapter.

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Karl POV

"Us? What do you mean 'us'?" My eyes start getting glassy with tears, and I can't control the emotions building up inside of me. Surely, he couldn't mean what I thought, he was just talking, he didn't mean it, I'm not thinking clearly, he would never say that.

"I...I-" He cuts himself off, and stops. The hurt that coats his voice drenches his entity with pain. He can't even look me in the eye, but what is worse is his unwillingness to deny my thoughts. He knows what he said, and he won't take it back. Why? Why would he do this?

"But - I thought..." My voice trails off. I can't finish my sentence, I'm too unsure of what to say.

"I promise I'm not doing this to hurt you, I didn't say that to hurt you."

"Oh yeah? Then why? What did I do wrong? I - All I've done is love you unconditionally." I'm getting frantic now, and he won't give me answers. I'm afraid, he's never said anything like this before. What the hell is happening?

"I don't- I didn't- I appreciate that, but I just... I don't think I can handle a relationship right now."

"RIGHT NOW? What do you mean 'right now'? We only actually got together a month and a half ago! Could you handle it then? What did I do wrong?!"

"Karl, just calm down and let me explain myself, okay?" I quiet, breathing heavily, but I don't calm down, and I know he can see it in my eyes. I remain silent and listen as he takes in a long, shaky breath. "I'm not ready for this. I'm not ready for us, not... not yet. You've always been there for me, and I love you for that, I really do appreciate everything, but I don't feel like I'm enough. No matter how hard I try to be a good boyfriend, you always seem to be the one comforting me in the end. I feel like I'm taking advantage of you, like you deserve a lot more than what is realistic of me to be able to give. Please... don't argue with me, you know it's true. I didn't mean to do this now, and I don't mean to be unsensitive, but I don't want to hurt you worse later on."

Alex POV

I couldn't help but zone out a couple minutes ago, and now I'm stuck. I can't walk away, and I definitely can't just keep standing here like a fucking moron. Oh gods, why did I have to be here while this happened? Is it really too late to walk away? Poor Karl, he's totally going to blame himself just like--just like I did.

Classic 'it's not you it's me' ripppp

Lol

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Just a reminder when you see bold it's me, and when you see bold with italics it's Orange

Again, sorry for the short chapter