Meant to be?

Warmth

Somebody get these two some awards:

Bruh_I_Cant_Write_ you're. art. is. so. good. it. scares. me (also go check out her YouTube channel: Sri_Does_Art for more ✨content✨ of hers)

ZWildcatBard thank you so much for agreeing to edit for me! I loved all of your input on the last capter, you made it really funny and entertaining. Also if genuinely like to know if YOU'VE picked up a cactus?

(From Z: Thanks for the opportunity! : D and me? Picking up a cactus? No, never /j of course I have I just grabbed it because I wanted it, and kind of regretted it)

(From Blu: I- my respect for you has gone up by like 700% in the last 10 seconds)

(From Blu three days in the future: OMG WE HIT 2K READS!!!! GUYS THIS IS ACTUALLY INSANE!!! Thank you so much, I love you guys!)

TW:
-slight panic attack?
Please let me know if you find others!

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Karl POV:

'Hope. Hope. Hope. Not hopeless. Keep hoping. Keep hoping.'

Sapnap might have been sitting by his side this whole time, but I've been in the waiting room. What's the point of seeing him, when I already know what I'll see; a pale-faced, fragile, sleeping Alex?

(From Z: that hits hard knowing Techno's legal name now, but MY COPING MECHANISM IS AND WILL STAY AS C O M E D I C SO QUACKITY IS NEW SLEEPING BEAUTY, WHERE THEY ARE GAY INSTEAD MHUAHAHAHAHA)

(From Blu: 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭)

George says 'it's not good for me to just sit here and think, because thoughts can be 'dangerous', but I certainly couldn't care less.

(From Z: HAHAHAHAH HEATWAVES IS PLAYING LMAO GET NEUTRALIZED!)

(From Blu: SOMETIMES ALL I TGINK ABOUT IS YOU-)

The doctors have little hope for Alex at this point. Having fallen into a coma, it seems highly unlikely for him to wake anytime soon. I don't know what I'd do without him, he's helped me through so much.

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Two months ago:

"It's okay, it's okay. Shhh, you'll be alright. Just calm down." He rubs my back, but that's not what's helping me. His words calm my pounding heart and slow my racing breath.

"That's it, Karlos. Can you tell me what's wrong?"

I gasp for air, trying to stabilize my breathing enough to respond. Copying Alex's movements, I inhale and exhale slowly.

"Good. Take your time."

"There were so many." My voice is small, but I can tell Alex hears me.

"So many what?"

"People."

"Oh." He's quiet for a moment as he contemplates what to say. "Online or..."

"Both."

"Okay, so I know there's no way I can actually help with the second part, but just know you can always come get me if you need to."

We share a warm hug, and upon parting, he gives me an even warmer smile.

'What would I do without him?'

(From Z: idk live without him or die but like anyways I filled a jar up with buttons and now I'm hyper-fixating on Minecraft bees and buttons AND I NEED TO STOP SPENDING MY MONEY ON BUTTONS THAT IM JUST GOING TO PUT IN JARS! Anyways, back to the story)

(From Blu: I got a rainbow sticker today from my teacher and I'm so happy)

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"What would I do without him?" I mumble aloud to the rest of the empty waiting room. It occurs to me that I have absolutely no idea what I'd do without Alex.

My mind comes up with another question, although it's one that I well know the answer to.

(From Z: When did I last grab a cactus and when can I do it again? When can I spend money on buttons? *insert gender crisis, then following sexuality crisis*, what else can I put on my wall? Should I spend all my money on absolutely nothing useful? The options are limitless)

'Where would I be, if I had not met him?'

That's easy, in a mental facility, pulling out my hair and crying for Nick.

I really have come a long way. But not quite far enough.

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HEYYYYYYY GUYSSSS!!!!

(From Z: HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY)

If you ever feel like being depressed go read my poems lol.

Anywayyyyyyyy I'm in a good mood rn, how about you guys?

(From Z: started school so feeling gelatinous, what about you?)

I dislike being in a good mood though, because after I'm not feeling as good my dysphoria decides to come back full force and sometimes I'm not quite prepared.

(From Z: OOF FELT)

Just curious, how many of you guys aren't cis?
(For those of you who don't know, cis means you are comfortable in and identify as the gender you were assigned at birth)

(From Z: ME! ME! ME! THE GENDER GOBLIN HAS STOLEN MY GENDER AND GIVEN IT TO RANBOO, THAT SLY GENDER EVIL)

(From Blu: GENDERMAN!)

If you aren't feeling that great right now, go listen to Passerine Podcast. Any of their audiobooks/podcasts will make you feel great. At least they do for me.

(From Z: I'm scared to read Passerine)

(From Blu: you should be, but it's ✨beautiful✨)

Hope you're having an amazing morning/noon/afternoon/evening/night/midnight or whatever time it is for you!!!!

I love you guys!! <3