i don't know
where to start
or how to
filled this blank.should i write
here, my love?you know,
you hit me
straight right
to my heart.i don't know
either if it is love
for i am a stranger
to this kind of act.will you catch me
if i really do love you?or you'll just let me
be erased into a
fading tattoo?you are the blank
canvas in my room,
that every stroke
i made the faster
the colors fade.makes you feel
distinct am i not
allowed to make
you as my subject?listen, you matter to
my existence.
you occupied
space right
through my mind.you are like a
meteorite that
amazed me
with your
blazing light,
yet a ruthless one
that got me cracked
when you landed
into my life.how could you
be like this?you're such a
beautiful disaster
in my place.though it's way
too dangerous
i keep reaching
out for you,
not knowing
i'm already bleeding.you are probably
my death
or my life support,
a nurse to my
wounded bruised
a torturer of my
living corpse.you invaded me
with your light,
i trusted you my
little secrets.we share random
thoughts at night,
yet you left me with
hanging cries.my apologies,
if i cross the line.not minding
i went to far
causing me to
fall hard
and drowned
in the quicksand
of your heart.you are my fatality
under casualty
in my state of calamity
you're such
a blessing tragedy.
YOU ARE READING
ain't first, ain't last
Poetryto be one's saturn. [old poetry collection for someone we could never have]