i tried.
i tried to stay calm
though i'm running
out of time.when i told you
i really don't know,
truly, i mean it.
and when i told you
i'm still breathing—it means i'm fighting
the chain around
my neck that is
choking me to
love the idea
of death.do not dare
to blow the fire
burning within me,
a little darkened smoke—its breath
is trying to
suffocate the seed
of hope buried
six feet under
my memory.if ever you hear
this slow beating...just hug me tight.
so tight.
with your warmth,
i might be able
to released this coldness
and somehow feel alive.
YOU ARE READING
ain't first, ain't last
Poetryto be one's saturn. [old poetry collection for someone we could never have]