ain't first, ain't last

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the rain keeps knocking,
songs are playing slowly,
drifting to bed i've been sleepy,
but i'm eager to wait patiently.

shutting down too tardy,
waking up too early.
it makes me feel like a zombie,
i think i'm still okay.

perhaps, i'm just too lonely
that makes me feel empty.
but that doesn't give clarity
'cause sometimes it's because of somebody.

somebody, i don't have the authority.
still keeping the animosity—
i thought it's a matter of punctuality.
too bad, i just arrived late.

push me away
and i'll still stay.
i couldn't walk away,
it's not that easy.

but you can
stop me freely.
i'll respect that
but please save
yourself dearly.

i don't want to leave
someone whose part of me
bruising and wounded
in melancholy.