Till the End of Time-

Chapter 48: Impulse

The next morning my eyes flutter open and land on the man beside me in bed.

I'm still snuggled in the crook of his arm, as it rests comfortably on my waist. My eyes close again as I feel relaxed and safe with him.

Some time passes before I feel something shift under me. As my eyes open I notice Bucky staring down at me as he was trying to move me off him.

"Are you trying to sneak off?", I ask amused.

He smiles at me before replying, "I wasn't sure if you were okay with me waking up next to you".

I frown at him, "I wanted you to stay, so why would I not be okay with you in the morning?".

He shrugs and doesn't reply, which triggers the memory of what I did last night.

It was only a peck, but it was something that I did do. In the moment, I needed the comfort and I also wanted to thank him for being with me.

As I look into his eyes I wonder if he's thinking about it.

"How did you know I was having a nightmare last night?".

"I heard you screaming", he replies softly.

I look away embarrassed that I was that loud, "Oh..".

He places his hand under my jaw and turns my face to look at him, "It's nothing to be embarrassed about. I have them too sometimes".

Of course he would have night terrors, and knowing that I'm not the only one makes me feel a little better. Except that typically my dreams aren't ever really just dreams, and that's the part that I'm afraid of.

"I'm not bothered by the dream, I'm bothered that it could come true", I softly tell him.

He doesn't say anything for a moment, "What did you dream about?".

I try to tell him quickly as I can feel a lump form in my throat over the agonizing thought of losing Steve.

"I can't lose him Bucky. I think it'd kill me if I ever do", I whisper.

He looks away from me and swallows hard, before moving to get up.

Bucky sits on the side of the bed facing away from me, "Everything will be fine", he says eventually turning to look at me.

"How can you be so certain?", I question.

"Because you'll do anything you can for the person you love", he tells me as he gives me a sad smile.

"But I don't even know what it is I'm supposed to do. Yes I would do anything, but where do I start?", I reply.

"We start by getting your mind off it. Get ready and I'll meet you in the gym. I think right now working out will be good for you", he says before getting up and giving me another smile before he leaves my room.

Once we get there, we spend hours in the gym working out which keeps my mind off any troubling thoughts. The more I train the more my mind grows tired.

I decide to finish things off by working on my knife skills with my powers. I raise a knife up from across the room before throwing it at the practice board with my telekinesis.

"Rosie, we've been at this all day you shouldn't keep using your powers", Bucky says as he stands on the sidelines taking a drink of water.

"I'm fine Bucky, I'll stop when I'm tired", I say as I summon some blades towards me to catch before throwing it in a different direction.

"Rosaleen I'm serious. Stop using your powers, your sweating and your hands are starting to shake", he tells me firmly as he places his water down.

The thing is I don't want to stop. Working myself to exhaustion is keeping thoughts and worries out of my head. I don't want to go back to having anxiety over losing Steve again.