Luke's pov
After I had some tongue lashes from Pete, for nothing. Of course he was stressed. Anyways I sorted it my way then went out to see Lan. I spent some time with him and was heading home when I saw Pete on the road. Let's get my baby with me and have some fun, maybe he will feel a bit better.
I stopped the car on the side and found him... High as fuck? His face was an absolute mess. I tried talking to him and he just walked away in front of a car that was heading his way, still talking nonsense.
I lost my shit to witness that. I pulled him aside. He has no idea what he is even saying! I was about to lose him. To say I was scared would be an understatement, I was fucking terrified!
What if I missed by a second or what if I wasn't even here?! He was this high, anything could have happened to him. I did the unexpected and regretted it instantly.
I slapped him.
I can't believe what the fuck did I just do?! How can I?! I don't know. He wasn't reasoning with anything, I got scared and just... No. I feel like crying now. I never raise my hands on him ever. I just did it. He must be too overwhelmed and the way he looked at me with those eyes, like he never expected it from me. Now this will haunt me for life.
We got home and had dinner. He told me about the details and we spent some great time together then went to sleep. I couldn't get myself to sleep at all. I was thinking about Pete's condition.
He is too young to be facing all of this. It would be surprising if he didn't have a breakdown after this but being the strong kid he is, he managed to survive it too. I know with the worst ways possible but it's actually difficult to reason well in that situation. I should have tried my best to help him. Maybe certain things could have been avoided.
I still can't believe how I slapped him. I feel so horrible about it. So horrible!
I hurt him when I shouldn't have. The guilt is eating me bad. Pete says we are cool, he forgives me and understands all those shits but the thing is I can't forgive myself.
I stayed up for so long and then watched some series on the laptop to get sleepy. It worked, I drifted off to sleep
" Lucaaa!!! Wake up." Pete shook me, yelling
I opened my eyes lightly. Oh what a start to the day!
" 5 mins." I mumbled
" Ohh, you stayed up? I'll tell on you." He said as he grabbed the laptop from my side
" Nah you won't!"
" I will! Cole!!!" He yelled
This spider!
I got up and put my hand on his mouth. " Just lemme sleep for 10 mins, stay shut till then!"
He shook his head 'No'
" C'mon love, join me too. I will top up your game later, whatever you say just let me sleep and stay shut."
He smiled and nodded.
" Nice." I left him and drifted back to sleep
He said," From where you get the money to top up my games?"
" I just got it, shh."
" They pay you well in the gang?"
" You won't let me sleep?"
" No, no, sorry. Sleep baby." He said as he stroked my hair and patted my butt
" Stop that." I said removing his hand from my butt. " Pete, I'm serious, no words ahead, lemme sleep! "
