Ch 15: Slap

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Peter's pov

After two days ™

Finally we are heading home. I haven't been so happy or enthusiastic the last few days in the farm house despite all the funny activities, I don't feel like it. Cole and Nico were coming back. Luca has been trying to get me to talk or to do anything, I told him multiple times I was fine and all but he seems to not believe me, whatever. I stopped talking to him, not that I want to, I just don't feel like it. I feel if I distance myself a bit then maybe it will hurt me less, then maybe it will cause less worry and anxiety and maybe they won't have to worry about their charge of a son and brother who can't even handle all of this.

The whole way back home, I just stared out of the window, the whole scene reviving in my head. I have seen my dad almost getting killed, my brothers too. None are ever safe, it kills me so much.

I distracted dad by asking for a gun too... I'm just useless... The only thing he was thinking about was getting me out... He knows how useless and helpless I am. I fucked up big time. Only if I wasn't so stupid and demanding maybe he wouldn't have gotten hurt.

I could feel my throat having a lump and eyes heating up.

Yeah now start your waterfall like a damn cry baby you are!

Can't let them be at peace for a moment. Shut up! I am not doing anything against them.

I bit my inner cheek tightly, almost causing it to bleed. Won't cry, won't worry them. They don't have to bear the charges of the fact that I was born this useless

I was still staring out, not paying attention to my brother.

" Peter!!!" Dad called me as he shook me

" Y.. yeah daddy?" I asked, getting away from my thoughts as I looked up at him

" Your brother was talking to you."

" Oh, what is it, Luca?" I asked him turning to him

" I asked what do you want me to get you?"

" Eh sorry, I was almost feeling sleepy so I didn't hear you. Get me for what?" I asked

" To eat."

" Oh , nothing. I am not hungry, just get me a bottle of water."

" Pete, you haven't eaten from 5 hours...  Get you a mini pizza?"

" Okay." I agreed

I know he won't leave me without it.

" Okay." He smiled and went out

Few minutes later he came with a mini pizza and two coffees for him and dad and carried on driving. I had the pizza, I was gonna leave after two slices but Luca insisted on me to finish all four. I was done and dozed off eventually because it was impossible to shut those thoughts off.

Time skip™

I feel myself being shook. I opened my eyes slowly to find dad telling me to get up. We had reached home. We got in and met Cole and Nico. I hugged Nico tightly, I missed him so much. Then I went to Cole, his cologne, so relaxing. I kept hugging him then we went to the living room to sit. I was practically clinging on to Cole for dear life, his smell made me feel safe, feel protected.

" Dad, are you fine?" Cole asked as he was holding me

" Yeah, a lot... Like really you shouldn't have left your girlfriends and work and come here."

" Man, seeing you this fine is what matters, Dad. Our girls know that." Nico replied

" My mini, you had fun?" Cole asked me 

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