DROWNED

PROLOGUE

DISCLAIMER

This is a work of fiction. Any names or characters, businesses or places, events or incidents, are fictitious. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

WARNING❗❗❗

This is a GxG story so if this isn't your cup of tea you can just not read this, no one is forcing you. Typographical and grammatical errors ahead. Plagiarism is a crime.

Date Started: 06/01/22
Date Ended: 08/29/22
Revision Date: 04/30/23

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PROLOGUE

We're just standing here at the playground near the hospital, looking at each other while her tears are streaming down her cheeks while I was biting my lower lip to suppress the tears, saying nothing. But it was the kind of nothing that meant everything.

I already know what this conversation is all about. That's why I've been avoiding her eversince we came back from the resort. It's because i'm scared. I'm scared because I know where this conversation is going.

"Can we talk now? Please." She said with a look of begging in her eyes.

"Love, you probably won't leave me if I agree to talk, right?" I chuckled dryly before forcing a smile that made her bit her lower lips to suppress her tears.

"Just let me go, Kiare." She begged again.

How can I let her go? What's this? I'll let her go again for the second time? I just let her go nine years ago because I don't have anything yet. But now, I have everything... except for the fact that it seems like i'll lose her. I'm already successful, I have my own hospital. I can already give her the life that she deserves.

But why is she asking me to let her go again? Bakit kailangan maiwan ulit ako?

"I'm begging you, please." And again.

"Why?" I asked her while my tears is slowly falling down.

"I'm tired already I can't see my future with you, so please just let me go." And again.

How can she say that? She can't see her future with me? Well, I can even see my next life with her.

In her eyes, there was no trace of what had happened between us like there was never an "us", and the look on her eyes is like she's just looking at a random stranger who caused her pain and suffering. It was painful.

It must've hurt a lot, huh? Her words were like knives that's stabbing me straight in my heart. It was so painful.

Here she is the woman that I am ready to kneel and beg for, she's crying while begging me to let her go. I didn't know that staying with me must've hurt a lot. I didn't want to see her like this. I like seeing her happy, because it's the only thing that I ever wanted for her, not like this that she was suffering and in pain just because we were together.

I could feel something inside me broke and shattered. I'm in pain again, I felt it in the pit of my stomach, the familiar ache, and the guilt that I felt when Ryler died. I'm feeling it all again because of her. The guilt of not talking to her because I knew she'll leave me and i'll get hurt not knowing that she was suffering more because of it.

So that was that, In just a snap we were already over. I don't mind though as long as she's happy it's always fine by me, as long as she's not in pain and she's not suffering it's fine by me. I can bare all the pain just to see her happy. So I agreed to what she want.

"Okay, if that's what you want I'll give it to you." I said before smiling genuinely at her.

I'm drowning in pain.

"Can I ask for a favor?" Tanong ko habang nakatingin sakanya.

"What is it?"

"Can you keep the promise ring for me?" I asked her.

Kahit yung singing nalang... At least mayroon pa rin akong maiiwan na sa kaniya kahit ako naman yung iiwanan niya.

"Sure, I'll keep it." Pilit ang ngiting sabi niya habang tumatango.

Muli kaming natahimik at tanging mahinang hikbi lang ang maririnig sa buong lugar. This place will always be part of the collection of painful places and memories.

I looked at her again. "Can you stay for the night?" I asked feeling hopeful.

It looks like she's hesitating.

"Please?" She was still hesitating. "I'll help you p-pack your things." I said almost begging that made her nod.

That night when she fell asleep after we finished arranging all her things, I silently cried because I'm afraid that she wakes up while i'm hugging her tightly as if I didn't want to let her go which is the truth.

She'll leave me drowned in pain and in darkness again.

I cried all night while hugging and looking at her because tomorrow when I wake up I know that there's no her that's lying next to me. I couldn't make her stay again just like what happened almost nine years ago.

Bukas, iiwan niya na ako.

Iiwan niya ulit ako.

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Ah, i'm having mental block gusto kong magsulat sa bachelorette love tetralogy pero ayaw makisama ng utak ko. So, I decided to bring this back bit by bit since I noticed na marami ang curious sa kanila sa DTPA.

— seryrenity