𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒐𝒏 ➼ 𝒋.𝒃𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒔

twenty nine :

i wake up in the morning and see its almost evening. god i might be too tired last night. i've
spent the night crying and ignoring so many people as i would because i swear my mood wasn't fine. i take a look at my cellphone and see missed calls from jonathan . oh my god, im so so dead. i promised myself to call him yesterday but i can't even control my emotions after i got home. i quickly go downstairs and finds out that jonathan is sitting on  the couch waiting for me

"look im sorry i fall asleep and i was too emotional' i says and he smiles. it feels weird that he arrives early at my place today.

'its fine really but lia i need you to hear me out' he says and i holds his hand

'hey its fine okay? i understand everything' i says

i just want to tell him that i love him too but i am just too scared to do it. even how bad i want to let him know my feelings towards him for real.

'look i don't care as who do you love me okay? i don't even care about any of that. im not going to stay away from you because of this jonathan. never. we are cousins, i don't want the cousin relationship between us ruin because of this okay?' i hugs him

and he hugs me back

"i love vou lia' he says and i smiles.

"i know jon, i know' i replies. i love you too jonathan.

i cant say it now but i do love you.

*

1997

years pass, seaquest got cancelled after few episodes. ugh. jonathan and i got casting together
again in born free.  well we told our moms the truth about our kissing scene on seaquest and ended up getting more supports for them when we told them that we were going to have another movie together, in born free. i swear its been like good, we need to went to south africa for the whole movie shoot. it was fun.

right now, i got a call from another movie director of  'two came back' for another role as susan
jonathan also got the part as Jason. its nice, to be onscreen with him like seriously, i love being around with him since we were kids. some of the directors are wanting us to be the best onscreen couple but we don't make it until that part yet since seaquest ended. 

i have't seen jon right after we finish shooting born free. he was brunette and his hair was kind of short HAHAAH. not to be mean but he's still cute. im also planning some tour dates but its not the time yet to go on tour, im busy with my acting career so. Got to go now to pick up my script as susan. also im gonna meet my cousin, yesss!

i drive to the place that the director tells me to everyone are there. im always late i know ughh. i
then quickly say hi to everyone and my hair is still blonde. I don't know why i don't want to change the hair colour. every single cast say hi and welcomed me with warm hugs after i received my script. after hugging david, i can see jonathan looking at me. he
looks so, so beautiful. more mature and yeah, he's 21 now. i hugs him and he chuckles

'i've missed you' i says and he laughs

'me too lia. how are you? im sorry i dont visit you' he says and i laughs

'its fine. infact we are together again onscreen' i says and he smiles.

we are having discussions now about where and how the movie is going to be shooting at meanwhile i cant stop staring at jonathan and he also keep staring at me during the whole discussion. i mean oh my god, he's so precious and beautiful, why i didn't even want to tell him the truth two years ago about how i feel about him. 

leo and i have a complicated relationship in the end of 1995 til february 1996 i guess. we were over but no one knows we were together unless leo spill something about his relationship between us. he's good but sometimes he easily got jealous. we broke up due to Leo being jealous towards me and Jonathan. He keeps comparing himself with my cousin, which was not a good thing to listened to.

after hours, we finally finish the discussion between the crew and casts. its gonna be amazing. this movie is based on true story. meanwhile jon's and mine character will be portrayed as best friends. we are cute aren't we? nahh. everyone are dismissed but before i leave, jonathan grabs my hand i look at him smiling

'hey, you and leo are together right?' he starts and i laughs

'romeo and juliet stuffs?'i ask and he nods

'well i quit romeo and juliet jon because he is too complicated. ughh you're right about him . SERIOUSLYYYYYYY' i says and jonathan laughs

'see i told you. how about i stop by your place tonight? we haven't been hang out for such a long
time' he says and i roll my eyes while laughing

"i miss you' he says and i smiles

"i miss you too jonathan, more than anything' i accidentally say that . okay i am dead for real for real.

'wait what?' he chuckles and i shook my head

'nothing, okay you'll come right? tonight? promise me. pleaaseeee' i pout and he laughs

'okay okay i promise' he says then i hugs him

i miss him, more than ever. i couldnt even describe my feelings now after seeing him. he wears the watch that ive given him a long time ago. he still have it. i feel like he really do loves me more than anything. jonathan and i let go of the hug then we stare at each other.

"i love you, lia' he says then kisses me

i kisses him back. i love you too jonathan i do love you. i love you so much more than i love leo
jonathan. no other boys cant compare to you you're the one who knows how to take care of me
and my feelings. even though we are cousins but i love you more than that too jonathan. the both of us then let go of the kiss. im shy-for the first time

'see you tonight' he says and walk away

i get in the car and smile like an idiot. oh my god. i am truly madly deeply in love with him. i should tell him the truth. come in lia you can tell him the truth. you can do it. i want to tell him on a perfect time for him to know. i don't want to rush anything, so does jonathan. he didn't even like do anything to me or rush me to be in a relationship with him. im so happy he's coming over tonight. Maybe we can talk over things. such as our feelings towards each other.