impermanence

five.

𝒘𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒖𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒘

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were we foolish?
or were we just in love?

were we foolish
or was it just feelings
clouding our brains?

what would i give to go back
in time and fix all the
mistakes i made?

voices shaking as we talked
on the phone,
seven in the morning quickly approaching.

was i foolish
to tell you i loved you
or was it true?

were you happy with me?
tell me honestly—
could you smile at my smile
like i smiled at yours?

i wanted to be better
i wanted us to last

and even now, i think of you.
even now, i think of us.

do you think of me?
when we haven't talked in over twenty days,
do you think of me?
when you're with your friends,
am i ever on your mind?

i wonder if going back
would really change anything
or if we'd be stuck
in the same old patterns;

will you go out with me?
will you give me a chance?
will i be better this time, or
will i end it again?

another summer is passing us by
another few months of bleeding you dry

after all,
i still think
i love you.
i did, i did, i do.