𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒖𝒎𝒎𝒆𝒓
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i lie awake at 1:30
thinking about identity
and i want to talk to somebody
i know i should go to sleep
before it gets too late
but my schedule will be messed up
before i even realize it
before i even have the chance to try
i don't want to cry
anymore
i come out to my friends
again again again
finally telling them the name
i'm building into my home
telling them the pronouns
i'm stitching into my bones
this summer i will
reinvent myself
this summer i will
i will i will i will
get better
i want to dye my hair
and get new clothes
and go to the movies
and laugh
and cry
and feel
feel feel feel alive
feel anything other than empty
feel anything other than who i'm
reduced to be
it will get hot soon
the sun burning my skin
i will get sad soon
it's only a matter of time
i want to not be stuck inside
to not be all alone anymore
and it all comes spilling out
on the first night of summer
when you're not here
and i'm not sure i'm here either
YOU ARE READING
impermanence
Poetry[ impermanence ] • noun - the state or fact of lasting for only a limited period of time ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ ➸ 𝐚 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐭/𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐲𝐩𝐞 𝐩𝐨𝐞𝐦𝐬
