thirty-eight.

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𝒅𝒓𝒐𝒘𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒂 𝒍𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒍

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my mouth is stained red
from strawberry juice
and i'm tired.

you tell me one day
people will see me for me
and it will all be okay

but today,
i get so caught up in my head
in this endless cycle
that will leave me dead

this identity will hollow me out
and use my bones as a house,
but how long before
everyone walks out the door?

sometimes when i open up my mouth,
no words find their way out

i want someone to love me
i want to love someone back
but i lost my best friend when
you drifted away
now i'm lost in an endless sea
no land on the horizon, just an enemy

all the gold drains out
of my eyes
and each "i'm fine"
only feeds the lies

you tell me a story
to make me feel better
and i don't know how to tell you
i'll love you forever
so i just watch as you type
and send hearts every time

today has been rough,
so goes most days,
looking through a cloudy haze
wandering through a foreign maze

i want to feel better
in this body and it's design
but there's a fine line
between love and hate.

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