impermanence

twenty-six.

𝒔𝒐𝒍𝒂𝒓 𝒔𝒚𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒎

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drifting aimlessly
with no end in sight,
throwing punches and
getting in fights

the stars glow above
and i am hopelessly
falling out of love

anxiety eats at me
so that i act out every
moment in my mind
a million times
until i get it right

i can't talk to you
but you can talk to me

my mouth goes dry
my chest goes numb
and i end up feeling really
dumb

pluto is too far away
and the sun is way too warm
earth houses bumblebee swarms
so i guess we'll have to stay

i'm staying up late
and i'm not doing great
but i'll leave it up to fate

sipping coffee out of glass mugs
consuming love like a drug
when all i really want is a hug

the solar system
spins above our shoulders
every day we just get older

saturn has the prettiest rings
but only on earth can birds
flap their wings
and neptune is a lovely blue
but the problems will always ensue

we build our own solar systems
right here on the ground,
just messing around
with the foxes and the hounds

wind blows through the trees
and echoes the pleas
of many fallen leaves

the seasons change
and i along with them
and one day
i'll feel lighter again

but until then
i'll collect these planet pieces
and place them all together
so my heart is a patchwork quilt
of the cosmos i look up to

god, i'm still in love with you.