Tonight is the night we die

Chapter Twelve . PART 2

Both Jake and I stayed quiet after his revelations. We are still hand in hand. I refuse to let him go and he seems pleased with that decision. The cold wind blows and I shiver. I give a quick look at our surroundings. It comes to me how deep we are in the forest now. We must be close to our goal. We could walk faster but none of us wanted to hurry up and arrive at our destination. It would mean saying goodbye and having to face the eventuality that everything could come to an end tonight, before even starting. We want to hold to that moment as long as it is given to us :

" How much do you know about me ? " I suddenly ask with big curiosity " When you first got my number, you did some research about me, right ? " Jake nods and listens to me carefully " So how much did you discover about me ? "

" I am not going to lie. I know quite a lot about you, Gloria. " That seems to bother him, the fact that he knew so much about me before I knew just as much about him.

I simply nod. I am not mad at him, he did what everybody would have done, given the abilities he had to go deep into someone's personal life. I don't have anything to hide anyway. The only thing I am slightly embarrassed about is my mum and her fond love for alcohol. But I am getting over it now as time passes by and as I am drifting away from her. I don't have a father, never had one. Despite their great big love for each other as my mom liked to depict it, he was already with someone else. A child was not welcome in his life. She found a replacement, so many applicants for the role of father of the year... Of the week, would be more accurate. Slowly, alcohol was the only lover that stayed. When I turned 17 years old, I could not handle it anymore and I left :

" You know, for different reasons of course, we both left our family at 17 " I notice.

" Perhaps this is why we connected so fast " Jake answers, both having that vague smile on our faces as we think about that weird coincidence.

" All this time, we were looking for each other " I giggle, pleased by the thought that something was pushing us towards one another, something divine.

" Are you glad you found me ? " He asks me, unsure by the response I would give to him, unsure he wants to hear what I could possibly answer to him.

" Very much so yes ! " I don't hesitate but yet that doesn't satisfy him.

" Even though it is to lead you to danger or even worse ? " This time he is sure I will doubt, he knows he is going to make me step away from him. His grip around my hand even becomes lighter, like he is getting ready for me to let go of his hand.

" You led me to other things than danger or death, you know ? If something bad has to happen tonight, at least, I had this time with you. I'm happy with that " i shrug and as I finish my sentence he shakes his head.

" I am not ! We need more time. " He sighs, looking around him. You could start to hear the rumbling in the distance of the waterfall. Each step brings us closer to the finish line. Jake clears his throat, something clearly bothering him. I glance at him from the corner of my eye, waiting patiently for him to spill the beans :

" I did something I should not have done ! " Jake finally says. He let go of my hand to run it through his hair multiple times " I watched your videocall with Dan. The one after Michael..." He corrects himself " Richy attacked them at the cabin, when you... You were crying " He admits, avoiding my eyes, looking at the ground " I should have not done that and I should have called you... Before him. I should have known you were... I apologies for both of these things "I'm taken aback by what he said. I hate the idea that he saw me being weak like that. I got overwhelmed by my emotions and I am still upset about not being able to control them better in this situation. I avoid this subject by raising interest in the other topic :