"how are things with you and your crush?"
"i- i'm such a jerk and i hate myself for it"
"what did you do this time?"
"what i did isn't important"
"what's important is how much i keep hurting him"
"and gosh, i've been doing that a lot"
"you said you think he hates you, right?"
"yeah, and i deserve it"
"he deserves to hate me and find someone better"
"he's pretty similar to you, i guess"
"haha very funny"
"no, i'm serious"
"but you say all these things..."
"and you never change, mark"
"i want to change, but it's hard"
"my emotions become a mess"
"it's not the real me, but he doesn't know that"
"i hate the me that i am with him"
"you don't mean that"
"i do"
"everyone deserves to hate me"
"yet everyone treats me like a god at school"
"i don't deserve it, i don't deserve any of it"
"i want to suffer as much as i make him suffer"
"you shouldn't tell yourself that"
"why not? i'm such a jerk"
"you might be at school but you're not at heart"
"i know that much"
"no you don't—"
"you've never even talked to me off of a phone"
"that doesn't matter"
"what matters is that you've showed enough character for me to know"
"sure, you aren't the greatest and you surely aren't a poster child-"
"gee thanks"
"let me finish"
"okay, okay"
"like i said, you aren't any of those"
"but you are my friend"
"i'm not going to let you beat yourself up for it"
"you still have time to change"
...
"thanks haechan"
"for what?"
"for being my friend"
you remind me so much of him
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kind of cheesy but whtvr
✎ ---- dreaminghyuck⤾
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payphone | markhyuck
Fanfiction❝excuse me, who is this?❞ ❝ーi'm sorry, i think you've got the wrong number❞ where one accidental call turns into something so much bigger started ⌦ jun, 25 2023 finished ⌦ ©dreaminghyuck do not plagarize.
