Write A Prisoner

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July 23rd, 2020

You been approved for visit now. You can go on jpay and set it up but remember the video goes off my time zone so if you pick 9pm then it will be 5am your time ? Let me know if you figure it out.

Yeah it's 9 hours difference so what time suits you best ? By the way, I've sent pics from different angles but I don't think you got them ?

Anytime between 6-9pm my time but it will be early in the morning your time. Can you make that work ? And no I didn't get the pics, they rejected them but it's fine, thanks for trying.

July 25th, 2020

Wassup ma, how you been doing ? Have I crossed your mind ? Cause you've crossed mine on several occasions. I haven't been able to call you as frequently as I'd like because they still got us on this covid 19 modified schedule so we get locked down multiple days in a row. But hopefully I'll be able to get through to you today because I'm eager to be able to hear your voice.

What's been going on in your life, I need all the tea lbs.

Randy <3

It always feels good to hear from him. I've sent him a couple of messages but maybe he hasn't received all of them. I know they get covid restrictions so I wasn't tripping.

Randyyyy of course you've crossed my mind, stop asking me if I think of you because I do, okay ? Remember it, print it, tattoo it on your forehead, wathevaaa, just don't forget :-) 

But I hope you're fine despite that covid situation ? I saw how hot it is in your location so don't melt ahah. Ooooh btw, I've discovered a new function on my piano and guess what ? It makes beats. Sooo since I'm not a beatmaker, it really is a helpful feature ! I can't wait to let you hear it !

Take careeee my little Randy

July 27th, 2020

Aye that last message I sent you was from before I went to seg (so from over a month ago). Thanks for the pictures, you look sexy asffff ;-) lbs !!

I'm excited to hear the lil new addition you found on your piano. Now I want you to take action in trying to evolve to reach your maximum potential because I know you can !! I'm going to try to call you tomorrow and hopefully I get through. Stay safe. You ain't gotta worry too much about me, I try to follow the guidelines in order to stay covid free, I just hope you do the same..

Love is loyalty <3

My lil baby

July 30th, 2020

I'm having my first video call with Jermaine tonight and it gets me super nervous. I wonder how things will go. It's a good feeling though. I'm just happy to finally see him, we've been talking for months now. It will be 3 am my time but I'll take a nap during the day to be able to stay up late. Being that I don't have class nor a job, it doesn't bother me to do so. 

Babe make sure you sign in 5 minutes before 3 am your time. Wear something sexy !!

OMG. What does he mean by "wear something sexy" ? What does the man have in mind ? Damn. There's no way I expose my naked self ? Like... The whole shit is monitored. Damn I'm a mess, I want to cancel the visit now. 

July 31st, 2020

3 am

Can somebody tell me why I agreed to that ? I look like a whole fucking mess. I wanted to do some make up but I got too lazy and tired so I gave up. All I'm fighting right now is sleep. I'm in front of my laptop, waiting for Jay to appear on my screen. I spent the whole day thinking of a sexy loungewear and it happened to be a red babydoll. I hope he'll like it. At 03:02, his face finally appears. He looks so fine sweet Lord...

"Hey !" He smiled. "You look good !"

"Nah I look like a mess, I'm tired."

"Nah you look fine, Wendy. How have you been today ?"

"I've been okay, I did some shopping..."

"Hmmm what did you get ?"

I start to list what I bought but I can't help to bite my lip as I look at him. He's just too fucking good looking. He got his hair braided and a little beard. I thought he would be wearing those orange clothes you see on tv but it's just a khaki uniform.

"How can you be buying so many clothes in one day..." He laughed. "Y'all females are something else."

"It's not that much."

"It actually is." He paused. "I love what you're wearing tho..."

"Thanks." I tried not to look nervous.

"Let me see them piercings."

"What ? Like, now ?"

"Yeah."

"But... Can I ? Like... They won't interrupt the visit or something ?"

"Nah they won't, trust me. Let me see them."

I honestly don't want to. I thought he would just appreciate the view, not ask me this.

"You trust me or not ?" He smiled. "Come on Wendy."

I make my babydoll slide on my hips, exposing my chest to the camera. I see Jermaine's hand disappear, making me realize he's masturbating. My cheeks suddenly warm as I hear his soft grunt. 

"Oh my God... There're amazing... Play with them a lil bit."

I nervously let my hands wander around my nipple piercings as I look at the screen. I decipher the little back and forth movement of Jay's hand under the table. I just feel bad at the moment. I feel like a sextoy. I feel like nothing more than an object that is making him cum.

"Okay..." I cleared my throat as I covered my chest. "I think it's enough..."

"Why you stopping ?" He just said. "Let me see."

I'm so dumb. I just obey like a stupid girl because I don't want him to get frustated. Why does it matter so much to me ? I hadn't realized I had let his perception of me get to me like that. I feel manipulated. The guy is jerking off right in front of me and I'm the reason for this. Is that love ? Do I love him ? Does he love me ?

"Wendy ?"

"Yeah ?" His voice took me back to reality.

"Where were you ?" He frowned with a smile.

"Nowhere, I... I'm just tired."

I cover myself before putting my laptop on my knees.

"I know it's really late out there, thank you for staying up."

Are you not gonna call me babe... Just the way you do by text ? 

"Hmmm... Video calls only last 15 minutes ?" I asked.

"Yeah you have to pay an extra fee if you want to extend them. But I have to go anyway so..."

"Oh well it's fine." I smiled.

"I'll call you asap."

"Okay ! Good night !"

"Yeah bye."

The call ends. My eyes are glued to the screen. I don't even know what to think. I'm confused. I really thought we would talk about us, about life... I'm so naive... I honestly believed he would ask me questions and try to build something. Well that's what he has always seemed to want. I guess it wasn't true. I thought his motivation was pure.

After a couple of minutes, I finally turn off my computer. I put it on my desk then I look at myself in the mirror. I felt sexy when I first put this underwear on. Now I just feel dirty.