The Way He Looked At Her

This is killing me..

   I woke up but this time with my eyes open I felt someone holding my hand I looked up and saw Jax's Mom holding my hand and looking down at me. She smiled when she noticed that I was up. She kissed my head and smiled once more. " Hello princess. 

  Jax we be right back, him and the others had some business to take care of. " She said as she was putting her hand threw my burnnet hair. I smiled and just said okay. She just nodded her head and kept getting her hand threw my hair. She must of been really worried about me. 

  Gemma and I didn't get along at first. Because when I first was coming around when I was 5 I was an hand full. Then Jax would act weird towards his Mom when I was around. She didn't like the way I "changed" Jax. 

  I don't know if it was a good change or not. But when Jax started in the club he changed a lot. He was having his hair behind his ears, leather jackets, changed attitude that scared me sometimes. That was only if four years ago.

   He has changed but not his feelings towards me. Never did. You could tell because if you even said my name you better watch out. That is what I always loved about him. 

  I felt the same about him. I will always love Jax no matter what. Even if we can't be together now. At least he isn't going to leave me. 

   Or he would. Oh no. Then all the negitive things came running in my head. What if I really lost him. 

  I couldn't live anymore. No more being happy ever again. No I can't live without him. I just can't. 

  I started shaking and Gemma noticed and called a nurse. The nurse ran in and was checking what was wrong and she then looked at one of the beeping noises then realized it was my heart pressure. I couldn't stop shaking I realized Gamma was gone. Figured.

   I kept trying to breathe I wish my life wasn't like this with all of this stress, I am about to just end of this. I then saw a running Jax coming in the room holding my hand then said, " I'm here, darling I'm here. " He said as he saw me. The nurse thought it was a good idea to make me go to sleep I tried to fight it but the members kept me down even Gemma.

   I saw Jax and I felt the needle go in my arm. I got really weak instantly. I almost fell in the bed until Jax cot me and put me back in the bed. I saw everyone looking at me the nurse started to talk to everyone about what is going to happen to me. 

  Jax had me in his arms he tried to hear the nurse but failed I touched his cheek and he looked at me right away. I looked right into his eyes. He looked back at mine. I felt his cheek then said "Jax-" Then the meds kick in I passed out in his arms.