The Way He Looked At Her

No this can't happen..

I looked at her trying to be strong. I tried not to hide in a puddle of tears. She just looked at me with a even more of a sad face. " I'm sorry for your loss Mrs. Teller. We couldn't save him. "

  She said as she touched my shoulder. " No this has to be a mistake. I heard his heartbeat! " I screamed as I pointed at Jax.

  This can't be true. This just can't be. She went and took his palse. She said, he was gone.

  " He can't be I swear, I just heard it. I heard it go a little slow. But I heard it. I swear I did. "

  I said as I went over to him and held his wrist. I didn't feel anything. Then the tears were falling from my face. I couldn't believe it.

  This can't be happening. I now felt that pain that my mom did. This has to be a sick joke. Or something. I start to die inside.

  I lost my best friend, I lost my lover. My everything. The piece of me that I can never get back. I lost the one thing I lived for.

  I lost my life. I went to the ground infront of him then was still holding his wrist. " No don't leave me Jackson listen to me. For once listen to me and breathe Jackson please. "

  I said as I was sobing on the floor. The doctor went to my side. She wanted me to let go of his lifeless body but that was something I couldn't do. I still never wanted to leave him no matter if he was gone or not.
  
  " I can't leave him. Not yet please I need some time with him. Please. " I said holding on for dear life on his right arm.

  She just nodded her head and left without saying anything else. I still was sobing and holding his arm. I then get up still sobbing. As I didn't let go of his hand.

  I went and layed beside him. You could tell he was already dead by his now so pale face. I held his face as I was talking to him. " I love you Jax.

  I will never stop. You are the best thing that came out of my life. I will never forget you. I will never forget the memories we shared together.

   I love you Jackson I always will. I'm not going to be the same without you. I will not be able to be the Em you knew. I won't promise you that I'll be okay.

  But I'll try for you because I love you so so much. " I said still sobbing on his chest. I couldn't believe this. I lost him.

   It's all my fault. I shouldn't of been so stupid. I'm so stupid. I looked up at him and I kissed him hard on the lips.

  I know it's stupid, but I wish it was like those fairy tales. When normally the guy kisses the girl and the girl falls out of her spell. Well I thought for a moment that Jax could get out of the spell, but when I let go I realized his lips were purple. I then cried some more as I realized this wasn't a fairly tale and Jackson Teller is dead in my arms with no feeling in pain anymore that I'm grateful.

   I don't want him in pain like he was. He will see his father again. Be happy up there. He will smile down at me.

  I was so grateful I got to meet such a man named Jackson Teller.