The Way He Looked At Her

Don't do this.

I watched him all night. I never wanted to leave him. I kept sobing and holding him. I kept talking to him knowing he couldn't talk back. But maybe it could be better than him hearing me and talking to me like I was crazy. I kept talking anyways " Baby, remember when you told me to hold on no matter what? Well if you don't wake up I might just lose it because that would mean I lost my everything. Come on back stay with me. Stay here and grow old with me. Us making a family. Seeing our grandkids grow up and they have kids. Then the Teller's would be growing and because of us the world would be better. It would be a great future with you in it. Come on baby. Baby? Jax? Jackson? Jackson I'm warning you. " I said sobing and looking at him. Kissing his head. " I love you. I love you Jax. " I said I kissed his head. " I love you. " I wispered when I was still in tears. I kissed his cheek. I then lay there crying waiting for him to wake up wanting to hold him knowing he would be holding me back. I looked up at him and touched his face. He looked so lifeless laying on the bed and his lips were purple. He can't be dead. He is Jackson Teller. He can't die. Even if he did he would never leave me mentally. Never. I will always love him. No matter what happens. I kept touching his face. I was looking in his eyes even if they were closed. I just wish he could wake up so his blue eyes could stare at me knowing I wouldn't mind for a minute. I kept trying not to lose my mind " I'll always love you Jax. I will Love you even if somehow you leave me. I will Love you till the day I die. Maybe after then. Just to be with you. I want to be with you and have a future. Come on baby. Don't leave me. Not like this. " I said still sobing. I know I shouldn't be so weak. I know I should be strong for Jax. But it's to hard. Because I went with this with my dad. Again I was to young to understand but I saw my mom cry on his hospital bed when she found out he was gone. She has never been the same since. Which I don't blame her now because I know how she felt now. I can feel all that pain and hurt. I never wanted to face it now in an young age. To the one person that has been for me since birth. I don't want to lose him. Not like this not never. I don't want to face this. I never wanted this. If anything it should be me. I deserve that for being stupid and opening the door. Now I might lose someone that really cares about me..