The Way He Looked At Her

This can't be..

I just was walking around trying to control myself. It was hard to knowing I just left the man I love down there thinking I am going to be okay when I'm really not. I looked at Mom then at Dad. It makes perfect sense. It Just had to happen when I finally had to get Jax back. " I'm sorry but, I finally got Jax back. I thought this was going to get better. I love you guys but I thought that Jax was going to be the one to die first instead of me again. I love him. With most of my heart. I'm sorry. I need to go back. I need to at least see him again. You guys have to understand-" " We understand dear. " Said my Mom. " You love him. You want to spend forever with him. You never want to let go of him. Want to spend every second with him. I understand honey. Thats how I feel about your Father till do. Always will. " She said as she saw looking at me the whole time then put her head on my Dad's hand. She smiled a real smile. One I haven't seen in a very long time. Dad smiled to. I never seen Dad really smile before. Maybe because I've never really remember really seeing him smile. I know it's sad but the beer got to his head. Like it did with Mom. Now they are happy looking at the clouds as they are hands and the other hand like their past when the bad things happened didn't happen. Which was great. I'm glad they are the way they used to be. They aren't hurting or drinking anymore. Everything is okay. This is what people always talked about. I just wish that Jax was by my side. " I need to take a walk guys. I need to talk to the others for a while. " I said as I tried to find the right golden road to walk to my Aunt Sally's house. " Okay honey take as long as you want. " Mom said as she looked at me and then cuddled up to my Dad. I then see signs just for me to her house. I guess this is now or never. Me and my Aunt Sally were always close till she left us when I was 11 years old. I always thought it was my fault she died. But I'll tell you about that later.