The Way He Looked At Her

This isn't happening..

  I woke up to sounds of voices I heard Jax talking to Gemma. I wanted to talk back but I couldn't talk the meds were still in me I just had the strength to at least open my eyes. "You have to let her go. " Gemma said to Jax.

   "But Mom, I love her. " "No buts Jackson. She is dragging you and the club down. You need to leave her. 

  For good this time. " She said as she walked away. I then feel Jax's footsteps coming towards me. I still had my eyes open not afraid what he sees. 

  He has seen me at a worst state. He looked at me and had his hand on my cheek. "Darling, it's time to say goodbye. I'll see you someday when we don't have to run away anymore, okay?" 

    He said as he was holding my cheek. I was trying to find the right words. " Don't go. " I stuttered. 

  He went and sat on the bed and held my hand. "Darling it's the best for you you need the best. " He said as he held my hand. "I don't want the best, I want you. " 

  I stuttered once I saw the sad look on his face I knew it was really it for us. But I love him. I seriously love him he is the one I wanted to spend forever with no matter how crazy he got. Or I got. 

  I just lay there with tears in my eyes. "Jax, don't go please don't. I love you-" " Darling, you won't remember this in the morning. Just let me go before I hurt you anymore then I have.

   I have to go-" " NO!!" I said as I sat up and held on to his arm. I then let the tears go. I could see in his face he didn't want to lose me I don't want to lose him I will not go without a fight.

   I love him I really don't want to let him go. " Em, don't do this. " " Jax, I love you. " "I love you to. " "Then why are you doing this? " 

  " Because I want to keep you safe- " " By doing this? By hurting me?-" " That is why I have to let you go. " " But this is going to hurt me more. " 

   " Time heals all wounds darling. " " Well, not my wounds for you. " He laughed at that he made me get off of him and he grabs the meds the nurse gave me that I still aren't fully awake from. " Jax don't. "

   " You'll never see me after this, I'm sorry it has to end this way. I hope you have a good life. Fall in love with a better guy then I could of ever been for you. Have a normal life. 

  Get married have kids and forget about old Jax Teller. Have the life you always told me about. The ones when you had it all figured out. Never let go of your dreams Em. 

  Always keep them with you and never let them go and have a better life then you could ever imagine with me and the club. Go and stay in school. Go do the things that make you happy. I just want you happy Em. " 

  Before I could speak he put the needle in my arm. " Jax, no don't, don't leave, don't leave I- " I felt the meds come to me again I started to get weak and lay back down. Last thing I remember is Jax kissing my head. Then I look at him one last time. 

   Before I only see him in my dreams. The Jax I fell in love with years ago will never be the same Jax. I knew that night because the Jax I knew would of never done what he had did to me for no reason. I guess Jax was really trying to save me.