The Way He Looked At Her

Why?

As I drove back home I saw Jax was there because I saw his bike. I run inside out of a sign something happened. Something bad because when he is here before me it's normally bad. So when I ran inside I saw Jax covered in blood in the living room pasing. " Jax. " I said as I then had my hands on my mouth looking at him. He had his SOA sweat jacket that was dark blue but is now cover in blood. His black sweatpants cover in blood. He gave me a crazy look then started to walk around the room again. I looked around the living room and saw it was trashed. I just moved in a few weeks ago and I tried to settle in. But now everything is throwed everywhere and now Jax is covered in blood. This can't be happening. " What happened? " I said as I was now just looking at Jax and he was still walking around the room like he was really going to hurt someone. I went and looked at the room and tried to clean the mess up. Most of my stuff was broken. I had a picture of my Mom and I when I was younger that was shattered in glass. What had happened to us is just that I got depressed because of Jax and Mom didn't really care. I never saw her that much. She was always was drunk like always but it got worse. It was because Jax was like a son in law to her and she couldn't believe it when I told her. So she drinked more. She became more crazy because the beer went right to her head. She became sick and it started to kill her. She died a few months after my 19th birthday which was last month. So I haven't done really good with that. So seeing the pictures with glass made me lose it. I started crying and Jax saw it and went to me. " Hey Em, I know I messed up. I'm sorry I will fix it up for you. I swear-" " Jax, please I need to fix this. " I said as I tried to clean up the mess with tears in my eyes. " Here let me help you. " He said as he tried to pick up most of the messes. Then when I tried to pick up the glass from the picture I got cut on my finger but I was so mad I started yelling. Jax ran over to my side the minute he heard me. " God damnit! " I yelled when I saw the cut. Jax went and ran me to the sink and put cold water on my finger. I felt better and he put a paper towel around my finger and ran to the bathroom to get a bandage to wrap around my finger. As he did it I just kept looking at him. I was so surprised when I seen him so on it and so worried. It almost killed me because I am lucky enough to have him in my life maybe things could be okay.